Friday, October 31, 2008

The end of long week.

Oh thank God it's finally the weekend! I can finally relax after such a big week where i was so stressed. :)

So, today was interesting. I actually went and had a cool chat to OC (for those of you who don't know, she is a teacher at my school) with Matthew at lunchtime, although i didn't mention my sexuality. I needed to interview someone for my Journalism class and i wanted to ask her to be my interviewee. She said she might be too boring though.

Although she said if i just wanted a mark so i could pass, she would do it for me. She said she would do anything for me. She said she has great respect for me. She said i could do it when i had a free period, even if she had a class, she would just get someone to cover for her.

Wow, i mean... wow... She is just, AWESOME.

And even awesomer is the way she's just so honest, and the way she swears! Somehow we got to her riding a motorbike, and she said it's 'fucking amazing'.

Seriously, i adore her. She's the best teacher in the world, i just wish i actually had her as a teacher this year. :P

As the bell went to signal the end of lunch, we just stayed there and kept talking because she didn't have a class. :D

Halfway through the period, she said she'd better let us go. She asked us if we wanted to go back to class, and we half-laughed, half-said no. ;)

I only had French. :P

So she said we could just go do whatever we wanted, as long as we didn't do anything naughty. She said she'd get our names ticked off the roll. :)

Again, awesome.

Matthew had to go talk to our form coordinator about a problem he was having, so i tagged along. We went in and talked to him for about 10 minutes, but before we left, i said i was having a bit of an issue at school as well...

And then i told him. I told him that a bunch of the kids had found out that i was gay, and a few of them thought it was their business.

We had a quick chat, which involved him telling us that one of his friends came out at the end of college, and some people he knew couldn't deal with that. He said he didn't care about his friend's sexuality at all, and those that did, it was their problem.

He asked if there was anything he and the teachers could do, or if i just wanted them to be aware. I said just being aware of what was happening was enough.

He said that if anything happens, to go and let the teachers know, and i will.

We still had 15 minutes left before the end of the period and he asked us if we wanted to go back to class. We said 'nah' so he said we could just go to the library and hang out until the bell, and we did just that. :)

Wow, i never knew teachers were that cool! lol ;)

Yup, a pretty interesting day.

I know that if things start to go bad (well, worse than now), i can talk to my coordinator.

If things get really bad, i can talk to OC, who i know cares about me and will help me.

People are still asking me whether i'm gay or not, so i can only assume that a lot of people still don't know... so the worst is yet to come, but when it does, i should be okay.

thanks, love,


PS. i've got a lot of linkers over there now, as well as a few other linkers i'm aware of but haven't put up yet. When i get time i'm going to split the list into two, one of my absolute favourites, and one of my other friendly linkers, just so we don't have one massive list. :)

Just so i don't miss you, if you link to me and you're not in my links, it might be a good idea to leave a comment. I don't want to leave anyone out.

How sweet and considerate of me... ;D


AJCon89 said...

I'm so happy you are feeling better buddy.

Its good that you talked to your teachers - they will be a good support system for you.

And I'm really happy to have been able to talk to you this morning... warmed my heart to hear form you.

Keep up the good fight... you are strong and an inspiration to me.

Luv ya,

Anonymous said...

If this stupid thing would let me increase the font size to about 10 feet tall... well, just imagine this 10 feet tall....



p.s. i'm proud of you!

Doug said...

I'm so happy you talked to someone about it and that they are now aware of it. I think it puts all of us readers at more ease now that we know that you have someone/somewhere to go to if things do get bad/worse.

I'm a relatively new reader of your blog but I look forward to going back to some of your old posts and catching up.

Take care buddy!

Mr. HCI said...

I'm glad to see things are looking up and you're feeling better. It's also great to hear that you've got some understanding adults at your school. Things have come a long way! Not that long ago, you would've likely been told it was your problem and you brought in on yourself for choosing to be gay.

naturgesetz said...

Good news. Wel done.

Bill said...

I am really happy that you are recovering fast.If you have any problems, do not hesitate to drop me an email. I will do my best to help you buddy.

Hugs and Love

Seth said...

I rarely get to be the first one to comment, so everyone else seems to "say it all" already. So I'll avoid repeating the same things, but *echoing what others said* its all valid and good thoughts. Make sure you take some time this weekend to relax and unwind.

Anonymous said...

happy that you had a good day. I thought OC was a counseling center, not a person. Honestly, your description sounds...weird. for an adult teacher to toss aside all responsibility, including getting someone to cover for her, so that you could do an interview, sounds really, really odd. but, whatever.

Doomed but cheerful! said...

Life is a funny thing - so many of us tread the same path, that you would think that we would take care to leave more signposts behind to help people, like you, negotiate the fallend trees, rocks, vipers and rosebeds that are along the way. But (sorry to start a sentence with 'but' - it is my way!) you have already helped yourself by talking to other people, some of whom are fellow travellers, others simple observers. It's the commnication that counts - we are not alone - *you* are not alone.
I was out at school from 11, and it was not always easy: irrespective of whether you are straight, queer, gay or whatever other label one might be saddled with, we are all souls with varying amounts of love, care, need and ability to give.
We can be bold or timid; tread noisily or with care, bordering on stealth - it depends on how we need to preserve our own privacy, dignity and values. Above all, take care of yourself, dear friend. And once you are sure of who your friends are, let them take care of you too, as a gentle soul like you will inevitably be called on to take care of them one day!

I enjoy your blog; keep writing.

Gurney x

Anonymous said...

u no - teachers are really pretty 'kewl' persons

who else would work with the most despised minority within society for less than federally guaranteed minimun wage except those truly dedicated to the advancement of the next generation

i no - i'm not among that illustrious few, but, i'm still sought out after all these years

do you really think you don't have gay teachers???????????

who else but us would support you so firmly, even if we had to do it anonymously?