Marchin in a Gay Pride Parade.

Title says it all. :P Figured i'd make the post cos it involves a topic that many of you may be interested in. (;

So there was a state gay pride parade in Melbourne today. Me and my gay youth group went up there, and with our banner, participated in the march, under the boiling hot sun. @_@

There had to have been thousands of people there to watch or take part in the parade. And boy, there were all types under the sun up there in Melbourne, under the hot sun.

For a 'small-town boy' like myself it was quite surreal. Every stereotypical queer and queer-related person you could imagine was in eyesight at all times. I'm talking about tall drag queens in bright, flashy outfits, short-haired dykes and their bulky motorbikes, old guys in leather (and tight, bottomless pants x_x), slender tanned twinks in only tight shiny underwear, enthusiastic mothers clad in all the colours of the rainbow, and emo boys in black tops and low-rising jeans with, if i may say so myself, very nommable hair.

It was the largest collection of eye-candy and eye-sores i've ever witnessed. I've never seen so many cute boys in the same place before. And the funniest thing is, most of em like cock. :P It was so... strange to see so many openly gay/bi people in the one spot, or even openly gay people at all, for me.

It was the longest day i've had in ages, and it was the first experience of its kind for me, and quite an eye-opening one at that.

And i acquired a raging sunburn to remember.

Photos.

Enjoy! The city of my dreams. Each photo can be seen in more detail by clicking.

And remember, i come from a small coastal town. So this place was epic to me!

The first pic i took coming in by train, out the dirty window.

Photo from the car.

Some of the buildings.




We went up the Dandenongs. It was misty but still really cool and really high up.



A few pics of the concert, and the John Butler Trio.

All playing the drums at once.



At the Melbourne Museum. Phar Lap was Australia's most famous racing horse.



Next one reminds me of my cat Jemima. lol


It's such a pretty city.

The Rialto Tower at night.

We went for a walk along the St Kilda beach.

Then there's the Eureka Tower. It's awesome. The world's largest residential tower and the tallest tower in the whole southern hemisphere. It's 300 metres high.

We went up at night, and i got just a few pics before the camera battery died.

No photo could truly capture how beautiful this place was though.

I'll be back. :)

love.

I'm baaaaaacck.

It is so fuckin good to be behind a keyboard again. Blogging from a mobile phone was so lame! Both the 'end call' button and the 'cancel' button were between the clear/backspace button and the 'go right' button. So sometimes i would have to write a post 3 or 4 times cos i kept accidentally deleting the thing! And i could only type about a letter every second. It was so hard to say what i wanted to say! In comments too, and emails. So much stuff i wanted to do, but i just couldn't because so many things didn't work on mobile internet.

Anyways, it feels so good to be behind a keyboard again and to have the internet! :D

I thought it would be nice to be 'home' again, but arriving home i just felt so... eh. I didn't ever want to leave Melbourne. It was just so fucking amazing. And i feel like i belong there! Not here, where i feel crushed and restrained.

The trip was fantastic. And what i got from it is beyond words. There, i actually felt good about myself. And i never feel good about myself! What i mean is, i wasn't cripplingly self-conscious. I wasn't disgusted when i looked in a mirror. My heart didn't race when i went outside cos i was so worried about how i looked. I didn't feel so hopeless and pathetic all the time. Cos that's what this town does to me. It makes me feel like shit every day. But Melbourne was so... different! And i will be back soon!!! One day i will catch the train and not come back.

I'm in love with it! It blew my mind. It gave me hope when i was hitting the bottom. I feel like a new person, and now i have something to aim for. I will not sit here at home and wallow in sadness and frustration. I will work for what i want. One day i will get it. And one day i will be in a place where i fit in.

The best thing was the diversity. Seriously, there are hardly any blacks or asians here, and nothing like muslims. But in Melb there was every type of person under the Sun. And it was amazing. I can see why people there are so open-minded compared to my own town. In Melb, you see all sorts of people every day. Here, those people are ridiculed and laughed at. Just like gays.

As you can see, i could talk about it forever. I just want you to understand how different and new this was to me. This is a trip that changed my life for the better on a huge scale. I am a new person!



So while we were there we went to the Melbourne Museum, went to the Chill City Concert, went shopping in huge places, went up the Eureka Tower at night, saw the fire show along the Yarra River, went up to the Dandenongs while it was raining, walked along the St Kilda beach, saw Luna Park and took dorky photos, and just took in all the sights and sounds and tastes.

Took heaps of photos too but there are so many i'll make a post just for them tomorrow.

I also met up with one of my online friends and his boyfriend and we spent the day together. That was really cool - to see a gay person in real life! lol. He was really nice and i know he's reading this and he's really sexy too. :)

Bought my first mobile phone and used up all the credit, got a recharge, and used up all the credit again. lol. Stupid internet!

Also bought an Ipod, and a bunch of games, and heaps of clothes, and sunglasses, and shoes. And hair gel and stuff. lol

Also, my cousin had 100's of channels on his TV. That was awesome. ^_^

The weather was great and sunny the whole time. And for once, during a trip, i wasn't sick or tired or sore.

Everything was... perfect.

I can honestly say, they were the best, and most important, 5 days of my life. And without them i probably would have given up hope on ever being something and shrunk away from life and reality until i just was crushed beyond help and suicided or something.

Okay. Now i'm back here. The plan is to make it through until i've got some sort of plan to move there. That's all i have to do. Just tough out everything life throws at me until i can leave. And i think after that trip to Melb, i may just have the strength to make it.



I can't wait to catch up with all of you and your blogs. While i was gone, some people seemed to get the impression that i hate them or something. I dont know how the hell that happened. I don't hate anyone. MB LOVES ALL lol. So i've got a lotta internet stuff to sort out.

It can wait though. I'm gonna go relax. :)



Remember, no matter how shit life is, there is always hope!

Lotsa love!

To Da Big City.

Hi guys.

I'm off to Melbourne tomorrow morning (Thursday) and i won't be back until late Monday night.

I have to get up at 4:45am to get ready, and we leave at 5:20. The train i'm catching with my Mum leaves at 5:40 and then it's a 3 and a half hour journey to get to Melb.

We're staying at my cousin's house. I might be able to use the internet, so i might make a couple short posts to let you know how i'm going. But then again, i might not. :P

Hopefully i can just forget about my shit for a while and clear my head.

By the way, i will be turning on comment moderation before i go, so i don't have to worry about deleting abusive comments. :)

Oh, and my Grandma will be looking after the cats.

Look after each other while i'm gone.

love

I Will Survive.

Hai.

Feeling a bit better.

The issues i have about myself - they're things i can work on with the psychologists i'm seeing. They're gonna take a long time to deal with properly but i've got a lot of time to give and i'm doing the best i can under tough circumstances.

Someone i could just hold would probably help a lot and squish a lot of my worries, unfortunately i just haven't found anyone yet. :/

My social skills are pretty crap so i've got a long way to go. :/!

I should say thanks for all the support though (comments and some of those masssssivve emails lol). I'm glad i've got you guys to lean on. I dunno where i'd be without you.

I was looking back on something blog-related i said a while ago by chance, and some of the stuff i was talking about really related to me. I said something along the lines of everyone has the ability to be happy and there is a solution to every problem you could possibly have, and people should stop worrying about things they can't change and focus more on the positive etc. etc.

If only i could take my own advice sometimes...



I went to the gay youth group again today. The people there are really funny and nice and we're doing some cool stuff. Unfortunately the meetings won't be back on for a few weeks until after the Easter break. :/

Anyways the woman who runs it is really helpful and caring. After the meeting was over we talked about school and stuff and she said that if i ever need to talk i could call her anytime. (I know a lot of you were asking if i had anyone i could talk to in real life if i needed to, so the answer is yes.)



BY THE WAYYYYYY I'm heading down to Melbourne for a few days around Easter time! :O

I love Melbourne. It's where i'm going to move as soon as i'm old enough. What's good now is the fact i'll get a break from this place for a while. Mum even says i can meet up with a few people down there too! ...Only if i already know you online though. No pedos suddenly raising their hands are gonna get a visit from me. lol



That's enough for now. My mind's going all over the place and i keep making spelling mistakes. :/

love.