Bitboy's Gone.

He caught the train back to Melbourne today, on the way home to Sydney. I was teary after his train left but it's so hot and dry outside that my tears dried up straight away.

I must say that his stay here went... perfectly. We got along really well, even if we did have a few fights - nothing major and it always resulted in more cuddles. :P My cats liked him. Tiger brought him home some birds, one of which he then proceeded to eat in front of Bboy. o_O He left a single leg amongst the feathers. Nom nom. My Mum liked him a lot too. "Can we keep him??" she said. He bought her a big box of chocolates as a thank you gift, which was nice. I, of course, ate some. :D Thanks Bboy. :D He even got along with my Grandma really well. Whether or not she clued on that we were an item, i don't know. But she liked him. :)

Now i have to go back to living a single life. I dunno how i'll cope. It will be really strange sleeping alone tonight, waking up alone. I'll have to find something to entertain me. I'll have to adjust to not having arms around me and someone warm to snuggle against. I might even miss his slobbery kisses... maybe. :P

What is most of concern right now is what will happen between him and his family when he gets home tonight. Will they stop trying to prevent him from contacting me after he's spent over 2 weeks with me? Will they still try to take away his independance, after he took things into his own hands and left unnanounced? It seems kind of pointless to me, because when they push he'll only fight back harder, but it's all down to what they think, and if they can realise that.

Death.

Gay Mid-Schooler A new blogger who could use some help.

In other news i just got back from my Grandma's house, or as i call her, 'Nan'. I helped her make the Christmas cakes that she does every year. It was sticky, and messy, which is hard for an OCD freak like me. lol. But it was good times and at least i had something to break the boredom. lol :)

Halfway through she got a phone call from someone, informing her that one of her friends had died. What i noticed was something interesting. She didn't become terribly upset. She didn't even have a tear in her eye. Instead she just talked for a while, as she would during any phone call. Before long she was smiling and sharing jokes as she normally would.

She mentioned to the caller that i was there to help her make the cakes. I assume the person on the telephone said something about me being there to do the mixing, because she mentioned the mixing machine. She went on to say that she borrowed that from a friend one year, and it made things a lot easier. She continued to borrow it from her every year to make the cakes, until the friend ended up in hospital. She said she didn't get to return it after that so she 'scored with that one', or something along those lines, with a soft laugh.

Obviously it was said a lot less bluntly than i put it. It's hard to convey the exact emotions and ways things were said. But i got the impression that for my Grandma, death is not such a terrible thing. After the phone call she just said it was a part of life, and continued to do the cakes.

She didn't let it get her down, and i have respect for my Grandma for that. For i haven't had a death really impact on me yet, and i don't know how i'll cope when it does. I've just always seen it as such a catastrophic, life-changing event. Maybe i shouldn't though.

If only we could see death in a different light than we do now. It might not be such a terrible thing. It might not be so hard to cope with. We might find it easier to accept, and move on, and i think that would be a good thing.

Does what i'm saying make sense? As per usual, probably not. :P

love

Black Eyed, Trees.

It's cold. It's windy. It's raining. I'd be in bed by now, but noooooooo...

I was outside trying to get the cat to come home. hmph

When she finally came to the door, i went to grab her, but she ran off, and up a tree. lol

Don't forget you can click pics to see bigger, clearer versions.



On another note, a couple days ago my mid-70's Grandma was going to the supermarket. On the way in, she tripped over and hit the footpath. She hit her head and scraped her face and her glasses and her hands, and she got a huge black eye. Someone came up to her and told her that her face was bleeding, as well.

Me and Mum went grocery shopping today and she was with us. Seeing her like that... battered and bruised... idk. It just tore my heart up. :'(

I loves my Grandma. :'(

Finally found some time. :P

I'm back!

*dances

I've got the computer to myself for once tonight... finally... so i can post proper.

I'll catch you up on a few things in my life... Comment on what you will...


I went shopping with My Mum and Nan after school today... Nan didn't say anything about my sexuality. I can't say i expected her to - our family never talks about anything important. :/

Still, it could have been much worse! So i'm not complaining. :)


I haven't been contacted by the woman who runs the gay youth group yet... I do still have the former gay student's number that Mrs OC gave me and told me to call about it though, so i guess i'll call him on Saturday or Sunday... (See Thursday's post if you don't remember)

I'm kind of nervous, and kind of excited haha...

The thought of seeing a real life gay person... wow... :P


School is still sucking big-time, but only 2 weeks and 6 days left and i will get a break from it all. Let's just hope i pass... O_O


I seriously need a haircut... My hair is just SO thick and it grows way too fast. When i get out of the shower i have perfect emo hair. :D

Then it gets dry and goes all wavy... :/

I would make a great emo... You all like emos don't you? :D


I'm making good progress on my story again. I think i'll make a post about it sometime on the weekend... If you're lucky, you might even get 2 posts. *dances

- To make up for my crappy posts recently. :P

- Cos i could talk about my story forever even if it bores the shit out of you. :D


My Mum and i are getting along better now. She's doing a nursing course at the moment, and is in the middle of her very important tests which she needs to pass. I guess that's why she's been a bit snappy recently.

She only has 2 days left, and if she passes, this means she can work as a nurse in a hospital.

Also, she starts working in the evenings again, which means i can use the computer for a couple of hours. :)


*Still praying for the internet in my own room...

Although at the end of the year, we will get a fair bit of money from our tax returns, and she owes me like $350 or something (don't ask me why)... so if she pays me back (although that seems unlikely because she's not very good at it), i will be able to afford it. :)

*Fingers crossed...


And i put up 3 new polls, so take a look at them and vote, and as always, comment about what you picked and why in the comment section if you want to.


I'll get back to proper posting tomorrow.


To my blog buddies...

Matt, you are truly awesome for taking care of AJ like that.

AJ, i still think you are really brave for putting yourself back out there.

Landyn, i got your email and you really made my day... actually, my week. I love you so much.


Love you and all my readers,

===>mirrorboy<===

Another week off to a GREAT start.

Hey everybody. Sorry i missed yesterday. I lost track of time.


Today was pretty crap.

For no reason i can think of, i was sore all over. My leg hurt when i walked, my back hurt when i sat down, my hand hurt when i wrote.

Also that boy that i got suspended came up to my face, shook my hand hard and in a really snide tone said "thanks for getting me suspended, mate!"

He's pretty much the most intimidating person you could ever meet...


My Journalism interview is due tomorrow. I taked to my Journalism teacher about it not being suitable for playing in front of the whole class because of how personal it got, so she's just going to listen to it herself and mark it...

I still have another 20-30 mins of scratchy tape to try to get down though. And then i have to write the Feature Article about it... Fuck...

That's what procrastination gets you.


Regarding my last post, i was actually told that i sounded like a 'runny nose spoilt little bitch'...

Well, that's how i felt at the time. Believe it or not, my Mum and i get along most of the time, but when i was writing that, she was really fucking pissing me off, so that's the reason for my post. I had been dealing with such a hard time recently, i just needed to vent a little.

*sighs... Mini-rant over...



After school today, i went down to our Youth Centre and enquired about that group of people who meet up the street once a week. I gave my name and phone number to the lady behind the desk, so i'm expecting a call from the woman who runs it sometime this week.

Hope it turns out well...


I also ran into my old cute Asian friend from Primary School... He has cool thick black hair now and he's damn cute...

Unfortunately... he's not gay. :P

I did take the opportunity to come out to him when he asked why i was up the street. I don't think he really cared though.


Isn't it funny how easy it is to come out now? It was such a quick spur-of-the-moment thing.


Speaking of coming out, my Mum said to me on Sunday that she'd told my Grandmother i'm gay.

Hmm... I'm kind of angry that she didn't even ask my permission. O_O


She said that Nan took it fairly well...

Knowing my Nan, she was probably in shock. She's quite religious - a churchgoer, with pictures of God and Jesus hanging around her house. She also always says 'God bless' when you're saying goodbye.

It will be interesting to see if i keep hearing that now...

She probably thinks i'm going to Hell. :P


Anyways, i'm just kind of sad right now. Life is so frustrating and the holidays are only crawling towards me.

11th of December and i will finally be free of school.

I won't have to put up with my daily shit anymore...


Wish me luck... in everything really...

loves,
===>mirrorboy<===

The Shopping Adventures Continue...

First, i've added some new blogs to my links, and also changed my layout a bit. :)

If you link to me and you're not over there with the others, please tell me so i can link back to you! :P


Anyways...

Shopping seems to be the only mildy entertaining thing that i do. A few of you liked my last post about it, so i thought i'd tell you about yesterday's adventure to Safeway. ;D


School finishes at 3:30. My Mum finished at 3:45 and was going to walk down to Safeway, so my Nan picked me up from school and we went home first so i could change clothes, and then we headed down to meet Mum who usually goes inside and starts shopping.

Before we left again i sneakily checked my emails (my addiction). I had to make sure my Nan didn't see what i was looking at though. She doesn't know i'm gay and i'd like to keep it that way. She has a habit of sneaking up on you, and she's also very nosy. :P

Then we got back in the car and headed up the street. I was of course, in the car alone with the small-talk champion of the world. Sometimes i don't even realise she's talking to me and i find myself just going 'uh-huh' and 'yeah' without even noticing.


Friday must be the day that teachers go shopping as well, because when we got to Safeway i saw... Golemn... grabbing a trolley (also known as a shopping cart).

I should explain. Golemn is what me and my friends call one of the science teachers at school. He's named after Golemn from Lord of the Rings, because of his head - big eyes and bald... you get the picture...

We have nicknames for almost all the teachers... but i won't go into that. :P


I went in and found Mum while Nan did her own shopping. When i did, she said that we would be having a quick shop today because she had to work at 5.

So of course, we have a certain sense of urgency, rushing down the aisles and grabbing the essentials. It's weird, that we're only in a hurry when we're looking at things i want, but she can spend a whole 5 minutes looking for the right tomato sauce or shampoo. O_O

I had to put aside my pretty-boy-watching for the while as we soon headed to the checkout. Once there, it was of course my job to go find Nan and try to get her to hurry up so we could leave.

She was over in the meat section. I can't stand the meat section. One, because i don't really like meat, and two, because the smell of BLEACH makes me want to throw up. :O===

aww crappy smiley lol


We got home and Mum got ready for work and i checked my emails. ;)

Nan's always good for takeaway so i hopped in the car and after we dropped Mum off we went and got pizza. Woot pizza. ;)


I talked to AJ and a few others on msn for a while. AJ was rubbing it in about his beautiful boyfriend Matt and his beautiful hair... ooh... hair... :D

(Yes i have a hair fetish, but only for the stuff on top of the head). ;)

That reminds me... you can always use my email to send me pics as well... hahaha :D


Anyways... if you've got any suggestions for the blog or even anything you'd like to know about me just comment or email. :)

haha well i hope that post wasn't too boring. I'll post about something different tomorrow, but that was just to let you know a bit more about my exciting life. :)

love,

===>mirrorboy<===

PS. VOTE on my POLL, if it works. :P

Shopping with the family... Happy dayz...

So, first of all, new links:

As the struggles unfold - Nicely written (yay) blog about an 18yo in a similar situation as me. He's also from Aus. :)

And of course, Milkyboys - which really doesn't need an explanation does it? Heheh, i'm wondering how the hell i got on there! :D Mirrorboy's blog, in the boy blogs links section btw. :)

AND STILL, i have to find out for myself that these people are linking! They don't tell me! What is wrong with you??

Oh well nvm... :P

I did plan on posting last night, but then i made the mistake of signing on to msn. Then i get caught up talking to people and couldn't think of a post. It's my fault, not yours, so don't go not talking to me now. :)

And also, thanks to the people who've been sending me emails. They're so much more personal than comments... Also, it seems i have an email-checking addiction now. :P



Anyways, today i went shopping with my Mum and Nan.

We went out to K-Mart today, and i saw the big mistake coming...

Every single time, my Mum wanders off, browsing through all the stores, and then we lose her. I'm stuck with my Nan, small-talking, and we sit there on the seats waiting for her to appear again...

I started admiring the pretty boys who walked past, but i won't go into that. :P


I thought i'd take the time to give you a quick introduction to the way my Mum works...

"I'll only be a minute" translates to "you'd better go find some seats."

"I'm just going in for a look" means "i'm going to sift through several pieces of clothing that aren't going to fit me in a million years for quite a while and have no intention of buying anything."

"I'm just going to pop down to the butcher's" actually means "i'm going to buy some meat, then i think i'll go have a look in the surrounding shops."

"How do you feel about going to Target now?" is actually "we're going to Target now. Shut up and stop complaining."


Then when we were about to leave K-Mart, my Nan saw one of her old friends...

I swear, she must know a thousand people in our town, and a lot of them look like they wandered out of the morgue.

She could win the Talking Championship. No one could hold a candle to her ability to go on and on and on... and never really get anywhere.

Both my Mum and me let out a mutual sigh, and she tells me to quickly go get the keys so we can go and sit in the car.


Then we leave K-Mart, which we'd only actually gone to so my Mum could buy chicken sausages, and then we head over to Safeway to ACTUALLY do some shopping.

Of course, i picked one of the trolleys (shopping carts lol) that only wants to do left-turns. It seems that every single trolley has one impairment. On the rare occasion you actually find one that works it's a cause for celebration and you don't want to stop driving it. ;D


We eventually made it out and got home. The first thing i did was check my emails. :P


Today we found out that we have a nest of magpies (aussie birds lol) in the tree outside our house. Aww... so sweet...

Mmm... and now i'm going to get impaled by the insane mother maggie every time i leave the house.


I thought i'd take a different direction than usual for that post. I dunno, perhaps to offset my rant the days before huh?

love,

===>mirrorboy<===