My Blog Turns 2.

Well it axly had its second birthday a couple weeks ago but i didn't notice. :P

I know i haven't been posting much as of late. Sorry to say things aren't going to change, because it's intentional.

I've told my story now. It was one of overcoming troubles, learning and growing as a person.



I made this blog for me in the beginning. I was alone and felt like a freak in this conservative city of mine. I knew no like-minded people, no one who understood what it was like to like people of the same sex. I had no one i could talk to. So i was reached out to the internet in the hopes of finding people who understood what it was like to be gay. I did, and it was an incredible and invaluable experience, and now the fact that i'm gay doesn't have the tiniest impact on my day to day life, when it used to be a major issue. It's thanks to the people i've met online and for that i'm eternally grateful and thankful for having met you. That's the best thing about my blog for me.

But slowly Mirrorboy became less about me and more about helping others. I grew to be obsessed with helping people in the same sort of situation and that snowballed until i was eager to help anyone with any troubles any time, no matter how simple or intense.

I met more people. I got to know people more deeply. Everyone has shit in their lives, and i got caught up in everyone else's intentionally. Like i said, i got obsessed with helping, and soon my every thought was about my numerous online friends and how i could help them. I'd be freaking out some days about the issues my friends had. I'd even talk to my own psychologist about how i could better help my friends sort through their struggles.

I imploded. It got to be too much and i had to step back. I had enough on my own plate to deal with, and whenever i came back to blogworld i was faced with a loaded buffet of others' troubles. I would try and often fail to help people and it would hurt me hard. I know it was of my own doing, but perhaps i'd lost sight of reality and who i was. I couldn't fix the world, as much as i would try. I am after all, just a boy.

That's why i had to temporarily leave. To put things into perspective and come back knowing how much i could handle, and what i could not.

So things haven't been the same since i came back. For that i'm sorry. As much as i wish i could, i'm not able to help everyone with everything, and i've failed to live up to some people's expectations because of that, and sometimes my own.



I've told my story while getting caught up in others. I don't regret a moment of it. I grew as a person and i've made many friends i'll keep forever. I'm sure i've helped some people along the way. That's never a bad thing.

But i'm sitting in the back seat now. I'll watch over who i can. I'll read, often silently. I'll leave comments sometimes. I'll post occasionally to let you know how i am, but this is mostly for the friends i've made, not for an audience of anonymous people.

Mirrorboy has found his place in blogworld.

And Mirrorboy has found his place in me.

It's the back seat.

happy birthdayyy to me

(bday is tomorrow but i got my presents early :P) i got monster hunter 3 for the wii, dawn of war 2 for pc (tho i'll probly keep playing 1) and a nintendo wi-fi USB connector which means my wii can connect to the internet! i'm blogging from my wii right now :D ...altho typing is utterly terrible so this wont happen much :P it's like typing with a broom >_>

Birthday.

Happy Blog-Birthday Mirrorboy.

Thank you so much to everyone who's been my friend and supported me over the last 12 months. I can't begin to describe how much it, and all of you, mean to me.

I've come a long way. I almost didn't make it, but somehow i did. And now life is finally starting to look up for me.

The exposure treatment for my S.A.D with my psychologists is working. I'm more comfortable in social situations, i can do things on my own more, and my anxiety is generally lower than before.

My school is going well. The schoolwork is going fine, although i did get heaps of homework today. :P

I'm talking to the people in class, and most of them are quite nice. In fact they surprised me the other day. For the speech we had to do in English on a controversial topic, one of the girls chose same-sex marriage (she was for it btw). As usual, we discussed it afterwards, and the people are actually pretty accepting. I was quite proud of them to be honest. :)

I also heard back from the radio station today. They accepted my application and in 3 weeks i'll be doing work experience there.

On top of that, today was the last day of term, so i get a 2-week break from school. :D

The layout of the blog has changed. The blog links are updated. And a big thank you to deejohn for the bday present (the blog header). :)

And massive thanks to all of you for your continued support and love!

It's My Birthday (in case you didn't already know). :P

Yeah woot woot. :P

I didn't do much. After my psych appointment Mum bought me a Wii game, and then we did grocery shopping and had dinner with my Grandma at a restaurant.

Probly the best thing though, was all the love you guys showed me.

I really wasn't expecting anything, but you guys were really sweet. :)

I got texts from people with my number, emails from readers and friends and some of you bloggers even made posts for me. *feels really really special* :)

A big THANK YOU to everyone who cared about me.

Here are some of my fav posts. :D


AJ. My best buddy. loves u heaps :)

Col Col Cauliflower. ;)

Tylerrrrrrrrr. Posted some hair pics for me. :D

DW. One of my best pals. :)

Seth knows what mboy likes. ^_^

That's right i refer to myself in 3rd person. lol

And this freakin awesome post from deejohn of westasian. Pure awesomeness. *loves* ^_^

Much love everyone, from mboy. I'm honoured to know you all. :)

Also note, i changed my profile pic again. :P

Oi! Guess What.

I turn 16 tomorrow. :)

The only thing interesting about that number, is that it's also the age of consent for my state (even for gays). Woot woot.

Suck on that, other countries and states! lol

Of course that means nothing to me anyway. I've got no one to mess around with. :(



Anyhoo, i'm not doing anything special (other than another psychologists appointment. woot woot). I doubt i'll have a party, and i'm pretty sure i won't be getting many presents.

And for all the people who have been asking, there isn't really a way for you to send me anything. I'm pretty sure Amazon won't send here (the credits i already have i will trade for real moneys with Bob once i get a paypal account). So don't worry about it.

I guess you could buy me some porn. haha



That's all. :)

love

Plugs and B'days.

Oh hai!

Thanks for all the comments on my last post. They make me feel all warm and fuzzy. lol ^_^

It did take a week's worth of effort, so your comments made it feel worth it. Thanks. :)



Unfortunately while i was working on the super-post i couldn't plug any blogs and we've had a couple new ones join the community recently. In most cases, if bloggers don't get an audience soon, they'll just disappear, and we don't want that!!

These guys have only made a dozen posts each so now's a good time to get on board and make them feel welcome!

Coming Out (On The Net) - By AJ. He's 16 and bi. :)

Beneath An Orange Sky - By Joe. He's 16 and gay. :)



Also, there are a bunch of birthdays in May!

Jake - 8th.

AJ - Today! Happy birthday buddy!

Aek - 21st.

Me! - 22nd.

And i'm sure there were others... but i can't remember them at the moment. lol. Leave a comment if yours is in May and i'll add you to the list! :P



That is all for now. :)

love