Happy Chocolate Day!

nomnomnom

:P

BITBOY POSTED.

Shameless plug. <3

Wow.

So i'm just a selfish prick am i?

Blogworld does nothing for me any more, and i'm so goddamn drained from trying to help people that i'm of no use to anyone any more either. It seems every time i open blogger i end up depressed or angry, like i'm angry right now. So stop attacking me and my motives and tell me why i should stay.

And i will be replying to comments.

Buying Presents on Christmas Eve. :D

Not very fun at all. O_O



Soooo what's up with me? Well i've been trying to keep in contact with Bboy any way i can. We talk, and text, and play WoW together when we can. It was a lot harder going back to being alone once he left than i thought it would be. But regular contact with him makes it a bit easier.

I've been doing a lot of homework from my psych. Apparently most of the issues i have revolve around my low self-esteem, so that's what i'm working on.

I'm also trying to feel more. After i've been hurt so much in the past, i've become a very protective person. I shield myself to stop myself from being hurt again. In the process, i've shut out the good and the bad, so my emotions have become quite dulled. But again, i'm working on that too. I have to do this thing where i choose an event, and then list all the feelings i felt, and the thoughts associated with each feeling. It was quite fun axly. :)

I could go into SO much detail about my psych stuff but you'd all get bored. :P



In other news, i obviously haven't been around blogworld for a while now: not reading many other blogs, not commenting, not going on msn much etc. I think it's quite apparent to all of us that i'm not going to be around the blogosphere for much longer. I just wanted to make sure everyone knew so that it isn't a surprise when i leave for good one day. :)

Rest assured that doesn't mean you won't hear from me again. I'll still use msn and reply to emails and such. In fact without my blog i'll probly be able to do that more often. When i leave i'll be sure to leave my contact details for anyone who wishes to get in touch.



Anyways i've gotta go wrap my Mum's presents before she gets home.

Merry Christmas everyone. <3



Btw i've got an important post planned for the end of they year. :O

300th Post. :O

Well, recently. lol. I totally forgot about #300. It was a few posts ago. Ehhhhhhhh i don't have anything planned. So just expect something really good for 400. :P

'On-hiatus'-blogger (his words, not mine :P) Spencer came over to visit me and meet Bitboy today. :P He's doing well, working in event management in Melbourne occasionally. And Bitboy says he's looking good too. *suspicious* >.>

Bitboy just had a shower. Now he's sitting at the table eating biscuits. Not much else to say. :P



I'm starting to like my life. :)

What Do I Hate?

Summer. I hate it so much. :S

Being in Australia during the Summer sucks. It gets so freakin hot!

I hated Winter too, but now that Summer is approaching, oh, how i miss it. lol

It's easy to warm up. Put on some thick clothes, put on a heater, wrap up in a blanket. But with Summer, there's nothing you can do to cool down. :(

It's hot, and dry, and icky and sweaty and insecty and hot.

T_T



Also, see obligatory WoW pic, now that i'm a WoWser. :P

Haiii.

Sorry about the interruption in transmission. Your regular programming will return soon.

As soon as i figure out what to post about next. :)

Nevermind.

Thnx for the comments. <3

Argh

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRREEDDD

T_T

Ultimate Smeh.

So many blogs to read. So many comments to make. So many emails to respond to.

-_-

Another day of procrastination can't hurt, can it?

^_^

Mini Break.

It's that kind of time again.

I'm gonna take a break from blogging, and reading blogs and commenting, and reading emails and replying.

I've got a bunch of homework i need to do. After school and homework i also need some time to relax. There are some other things on my mind i need to think about as well. I won't go into detail but it's nothing bad, so don't worry. :)

I'll be back soon. Till then, love.

:)

Oh Noes!! D:

Why oh whyyyyyy!? I was only printing one page!! Why did you suck up 20 pieces of paper at once!?

:'(

Crap Week.

I've been a bit down this week... Well more than a 'bit' down actually. I think i've had shit coming at me from all directions and it has broken through my defenses. My nights are quite sad. My days are quite stressful. The bad mood only brings with it more bad thoughts about myself, which add to the problem. As the weekend approaches i can only hope that the new week brings with it some solutions and a happier frame of mind.

Sorry i guess i'm not making much sense. :P

I've identified with my psychologists that when i'm happier i feel better about myself. When i'm in a worse mood, i see myself in a worse light. When i looked in the mirror this morning i definitely didn't like what i saw (probably due to my worse self-image because i was having a bad time), which resulted in me having a pretty crap day (and making things worse). It snowballs, until something breaks the reaction.

Things had better start getting better around here soon.

Sorry to those owners of blogs that i haven't kept up with recently. I'll try to have a read during the weekend when i get time. Also sorry that i haven't posted to my Words Blog (not that anybody noticed/cares). Each post takes a huge amount of effort and i don't receive as much feedback as i'd like (which is the reason i post) to make it worth it. I usually have to beg.

Anyways i'll shut up now.

love

Dumped.

'Fag Girl' dumped me, like i expected she would. Meh.

On the plus side the school week is over and i can relax now. :)



Also, two new bloggers just joined our community and need some support.

A Day In My Life

Kringe's Blog... of DOOM

Instead of a post from me you can read one from one of those guys. lol

I'm too tired to post.

g'night y'all!

Meh. lol

Last day of my break from school was today. Back to it all tomorrow with increased hours. I think Monday goes from 9am till 4pm. It's easy to get out a few mins early, and i'll have to cos my gay group starts at 4.

I'll be leaving at 8:45 with my Grandma, and i'll be walking home so i won't be home until about 6pm. That's one hell of a first day back. lol



I've had a reasonably good past few days. I made friends with this really cool kid (a blogger) online a few days ago and we get along well. Making friends is fun. :)

For some reason, people seem to consider me as famous, and they get too shy to talk to me. Idk why people treat me differently just because i get lots of views. I'm still the same person. lol

Anyways my head's kinda blank right now. I got up at 6am this morning to reset my body clock for the early-ish rise tomorrow, and i'm really tired right now.

That's all... i think.

love

I Won't Be Back For 2 Weeks!

That's right. You heard me. I won't be back at school for 2 weeks! ;)

Unfortunately in Australia, the school year goes from early February to late December. We get about a 5 week break around January, and three 2-week breaks throughout the year. That's it.

Anyways, today is the start of one of those breaks, so yay.

Unfortunately once this break is over, i'll be going back to school at the start of a semester. I'll be taking more classes and my school hours will increase drastically (I think Mondays will turn into a 7-hour school day). :/



In other news, i came up with a good idea for my 300,000 views post (i know i was leaving the idea up to my readers, but because so few of you bothered to comment about it...)

Anyways, i'm going to post about how coming out (or rather, being outed) changed my life.

So that'll be a special and personal post. :)

That is all.

OH HAI!!

I've had wayyyyyy too much time on my hands since i took that break from blogging. lol - So much time that i didn't know what to do with myself. :P

So i return!

Hai!!!!

A lot of stuff has happened since my break, so i'll post about that during the next few days.

For now, you will notice that i am the author of only 2 blogs now. I've moved some blogs around in the sidebar, added some, removed some, and added a whole new category.

I'll be returning to normal posting on this blog now (even if my frequency of posts does cut down a bit). Be sure to check the other 2 posts that i just made, below. If you wanna make me feel special you could also leave some feedback on the posts i made to Words while this blog was on break, but yeah, i won't get my hopes up. lol

One thing i missed doing was plugging the new bloggers that have made their way to our world. Each new blog is a chance to make a friend, and help someone out. People don't blog for no reason...

So here are some new (well, fairly new, lol) blogs, that i demand you all check out!! *angry face*

Some of our new bloggers are pretty damn gorgeous too. ;)

SimplyNick - Surely everyone has already come across this kid's blog... If not, well you'd better jump on board quick!

Here's an excerpt from his 1st post.

"I'm 15, gay, and Christian. Fun? No. I live in the US but for the time being I'm keeping my detailed location private. Why? Because there are many, many people I'm not out to yet. I'm out to one person in real life... I guess I've known deep down that I was gay since i was 12 or 13, just never wanted to admit it to myself. Over the past month or two it has become very real, and I finally gave up on trying to change. Due to the fact I'm Christian I'm not sure what to think about my sexuality, other than I am who I am, and if God wants me to change, then it'll happen."

Benji's Adventure - Really sweet French boy. :)

If you can stand fractured English, he's definitely worth getting to know. lol. His blog is about vids, pics, and lots of cute stuff. And speaking of cute stuff...

(That's him on top) ;)

Secret Sides of Me - Incredibly sweet US boy. My nickname for him is 'big boy'. lol. He's intelligent and thoughtful, and just plain awesome. :)

Here's a little excerpt from one of my fav recent posts. ;)

"ok so let me start by just saying that i am unequivocally a Top. lol. i'm not really even remotely interested in entertaining the idea of someone or something in me. At the same time i have never been with a guy, as far as sex is concerned. other than a blow job. Now the one thing that is like more than anything turning me off the the whole prospect of it are some rumors about anal sex:
1. ur gonna get shit all over your dick
2. eventually they will shit all over you because you stretched their hole too much and they can't hold it in [medically this is true, stretching the rugea tissue that makes up the anus (butthole) requires time to regain it's original turgor]"

Oh yeah, good times. lol

And gawd, he's fricken hawt too.

Anyways, you'll be hearing more from me in the next few days. I know you can't wait. ;)

Got any questions for me? Check the below post for details.

much love

Ask Me Anything.

Other bloggers have done this, and it seems like a fun idea. :)

Here's your chance to ask me anything. Absolutely anything. Nothing's off limits, but of course i'm not promising that i'll actually answer everything. :P

Make sure you ask things that you actually want to know; not generic questions copied from a quiz on myspace or something. I don't want to spend an hour trudging through questions that no one really cares about. lol

Leave a comment on this post, or send me an email to any of my email addresses, which can be found in the sidebar (on the right) or on my profile. :)

I'll answer within the next few days in a post. :)

Well...

I really don't have anything interesting to post about these days. :(

The major thing in my life right now, even though it's always on my mind, i can't post about, because some people who know me in real life know about my blog and i'd prefer them not knowing about it.

So that kinda sucks. I wish i could be anonymous again, but i can't, now that people know who i am.

I've got nothing to post about.

love

Grrrrrrrrrr!!

Stupid cats! WHY MUST YOU TORTURE ME LIKE THIS?

They stay out till 7:30 at night when it's pitch black.

And i have to wait in the kitchen until they decide to come home.

They they will come up to the door and meow.

I step outside and they run off.



ANYHOO,

I'm only a couple posts from my 200th post! :O

And for that, i need 200 random facts about myself.

*gulp*

Why oh why did i promise to do this? It's sooo hard.

And i already used the good ones for my 100th post facts. :(



love