All About You.

*crap this took me 3 and a half hours!! lol*

People seem to be put off talking to me because they feel like i've got many other people to talk to.

Well you can never have too many friends. Hopefully this week of posts has shown you just how much having friends means to me.

This is probably gonna be long, but i wanna thank everyone that i've met through blogging who's made an impact on my life. If it weren't for the people i've met through blogging, i probably wouldn't be here.

This as also for all you who keep complaining that you don't get a mention. :P



Landyn - You're my favourite person in the whole world and when you hurt i hurt. I would do anything for you. I hope things get better for you because seeing you happy would make me so happy.

AJ - You're my best friend. We've been through so much together and i'm sure we will for many days to come.

Jake - lol. If it wasn't for you being in my life things would have taken a much different turn. You had a huge part in making me who i am today. lol

Bob - You're like a father to our blog community. You've got everyone's backs and i hope you know just how important you are and how much of a difference you make.

Lach - You gave me my first hug. ^_^ Hanging out with you was a lot of fun. You helped me feel more... normal. When i move to Melbourne i hope we'll see each other a lot more.

Deadwing - You're one of my best friends. I'm glad to have made a difference in your life, i just wish things could be easier for you too. I hope when you get down, you'll just remember how far you've come.

James - We've had our ups and downs, but you're still one of my firm friends and you've helped me a lot. I'll always be here for you and i know you will for me too.

Drew - There are some things i can only talk to certain people about, because i know they'll understand. I trusted you with some very personal thoughts and i know you've done the same. You're a good friend. :)

Joshie - You helped me during a rough time and i think that's when we grew a lot closer. I'll always be happy to repay the favour. Also, you dyed your hair pink and that makes anyone awesome in my book. :P

Wawwy - You's such cutenesh. ^_^ I loves talking to you. Is always interesting and funness. Fun is a good word to describe you. :P

Elliott - You were one of the first people to add me on msn and we've been friends since. On top of that, you were the first person i've met through the blog to talk to me on the phone, which is always fun. ^_^

Reilly - We have a huge amount in common. We've shared a lot of personal stuff with each other too. I'm really glad i met you.

Cutie Dan - Though if i said 'Cutie' you would immediately think it was you anyway, i bet. ;) You're a lot of fun to talk to and i love your hair. :P

Benji - You're adorable. You're so sweet and cute. J'adore Benji. :P Don't be so down on yourself. You're a great guy and things will get easier for you, i'm sure. I'll always be here to support you either way.

Matt - You're my good friend too. Memories? Playing uno against each other on msn. lol. But seriously you're cool and i like talking to you. :)

Steve - We don't talk much outside blogging but when you talk you always provide such a good and intellectual opinion. Whenever i make a thoughtful post i always look forward to your comments.

Aek - For an Asian you sure can be dumb sometimes. lol. You're a good person though, very helpful. Thanks for helping me with some of my medical problems too. Woo free advice. lol

Seth - One of my first linkers, and you gave me a big boost. You're very caring and to me blogworld would be a very different place without you in it.

Naturgesetz - I love that you're part of our community. I really value your opinion on the religious side of things. We've had some good discussions. :)

Mr. HCI - You're like a kid on the inside. lol. I know you'd always be willing to offer support to anyone you could. You're nice, and funny, and generally a great guy. :)

Steevo - You always say it how you see it. That's an important trait. Other than that, you helped me a lot during my rough times and i'll always be grateful.

AgentK - You're such an amazing kid. I hate it that you've been hurt so much. I hope you get some love you deserve.

Louie - It was great having someone to talk to about my writing, and i liked hearing about yours. We'll have to catch up soon. Next time i see you online i'll say hai. :)

Peter from PA - The compulsive video-poster. lol. We don't talk much but when we did it was always fun. We have some good memories. :P

Jeremy - We never seem to say much but we're still good friends. lol. You're good to talk to and always good for some lols. :)

Spastic Fantastic - You're also lotsa fun to talk to. Even though it seems we mostly talk about TV, game and movies. :P

Randy - I loved getting comments from you on my writing blog. I knew when you didn't like something you would tell me straight. That's what i really wanted and i grew as a writer because of you.

Kiwi/Chris - You're sweet and funny and you gave me the most helpful advice when i was writing. You also had a great blog which is missed. I doubt you'll even be reading this, but i hope you're doing okay.

David ex-Westasian - You had the best picture blog i knew. You had great tastes, and similar interests in many things other than boys. You were one of my most popular bloggers and i was so amazed that my blog was being read by someone 'famous'. You also gave me a birthday present which i'll never forget.

Victor - I'm glad you kept in touch because i always like hearing about how you're doing and your emails are always a pleasure to read. You're a smart, honest person and i'm glad we're friends.

David JB - I always love hearing your feedback on stuff i blog about. It's really nice that you take the time to email me so often and care about me. Thanks a lot.

Robert in the USA - We don't see each other that often but when we do i feel like we have a strong connection. You're a really sweet guy.

Zee - We've had some interesting discussions (arguments). :P You're so bloody stubborn and that's why i love you.

Torchy - You're another important part of our blog community and i'm glad you're around. On top of that you're really funny and your posts are almost always lolable.

Nick - I've seen that that people you've met through blogging has helped you to accept yourself more, and i'm so happy to have been a part of that. I wish you all the best. :)

John in the USA - You've been emailing me for so long now it seems like you've been with me from the start. We've had our disagreements but i'm glad i've gotten to know you.

John in Aus - The writer. Thanks for being my proofreader when i still had my writing blog. I dunno what i would have done without you. I also remember all those horrible, horrible jokes. *shakes head*

Tyler GBIH - You're really cool and funny. You've also got an amazing ass. ;D But seriously, we recently found out we've got a lot in common so no doubt we'll be talking a lot more.

Tyler DIML - And you've got an amazing face! lol. Talking to you is always entertaining. You're a really smart guy too.

Mike - Talking to you is always good times. We've got heaps in common, like 2 jigsaw pieces. :)

Jayson - You kept an eye out for the bloggers and were always supportful.

Col - One of my biggest memories of blogging was when you interviewed me. It was a great idea of yours to do those interviews. You were also super-nice and really caring and i'm sorry that you disappeared.

Doomed BC - He who types in huge paragraphs. lol. You're a really nice, caring guy.

Aahsazyl - You're just plain strange. lol. And you're so lovable because of it. :P

Baz - You gave me some good writing advice and you always tell it how it is.

Lance - We've had some ups and some major downs. But i do care about you and i hope you're doing okay.

Hayden - When we first met i thought you were a bit strange, but you're really a nice guy. :P

Justin - You were the only one who knew how to get that game of mine to work. You can call in that favour any time. ;)

Olivia - You're still the only girl on my msn. lmao. You're wicked-cool and i still remember the poem you wrote for me during my rough time. It was really sweet. :)

Tristan - You were really helpful during my first days as a blogger and your words of advice were really important to me.

Tom ex-Daily Jizzt - Tommy Toppy or Tommy Bottomy. Works either way. xD. You had a great sense of humour and you were also really nice and caring. I miss you.

Chris from Aus - You're a really smart guy and i like talking to you. We share a lot of opinions on things too.

Paulie - You're funny, you're sweet and you're hot. ;)

Peter PH - You're a really nice guy. I remember that you'd always send me those funny story things, and that was always fun. And we've got very similar tastes in boys. :)

And Grant - Thanks for all the awesome smileys. lol



I really do hope i didn't miss anyone. lol

Hai But Bai.

Okay, so here's the thing.

I've gotta a lotta stuff to do at the moment. I need to write an essay on a book we read in English, and also do an assignment on the book (It's called The Divine Wind, it was really good axly). I also need to find articles for a speech i have to do about a topic i chose (human euthanasia). And there's more stuff to do with my Work Skills class. I kind of need to... find a job and do work experience to pass.

I also need to get other stuff sorted out to do with turning 16, which was a while ago. Bunch of other stuff too. No point going into it.

To be honest, i haven't even read the majority of e-mails i've received in the past couple of weeks. And those of you with my msn may have noticed i've barely been on. I think it'll stay like that for a while. I went on it last night after being away for a while, and while i was on i was hurt. So what's the f'ing point, ya know? I'm just gonna be a ghost now, for a while at least.

I'm sorry to all the owners of blogs i haven't been reading and commenting. But you've all got your own lives and problems to deal with. I simply can not get involved. Right now, i need to focus on me, my life, and my own problems. That's all i can take for now.

And i may or may not be on msn occasionally. If i am it won't be for long.

Right now i will go and respond to all the e-mails in my inbox. If you e-mail me after this, don't expect a quick reply. Sorry.

I will try to post when i can. I do still have stuff to blog about. It's not the blogging that has made me have to do this, it's everything that comes with it.

Listen Bitches.

Okay, i looooooove MSN k? I've met some really awesome people on there and i love using it. And the reason i put up my address on my profile was so that i could meet more awesome people. And most people i talk to are awesome...

But ffs! Do NOT say hi AND THEN ASK ME FOR PICS.

Not a good way to start off k?

Especially when my status message is:

'I DONT GIVE OUT PICTURES.'

Yeah, it's okay to ask me why. Then i'll say something like 'umm, cos i don't want to.'

A good reply is NOT:

are you ugly?

Move the convo along. Don't make it about pics, because then you get DELETED.



Anyways, saying all that. I'm a really nice person and i love meeting people on msn. :) lol

(I don't want to scare you all away now lol)

I'm just so sick of meeting creeps.



Here's another NEW blog. :)

Ten Seconds At A Time.

By a gay teen who lives in Aus. :D

Like me. :D

In the middle of nowhere. :O

So go check him out and give him a warm welcome!



love.

I'm happy? :O

So i haven't really been happy for a long time. I found it hard to even smile or laugh and mean it.

But i spoke to Landyn on msn tonight! And i was like :D!

I hadn't spoken to him for months and i was missing him so much. Then tonight i was sitting here at my computer with msn on and he signed in! I was beyond happy! He really means the world to me so to talk to him after so long was amazing. ^_^

I don't expect many of you to understand, but i just feel this huge connection with him. It's like a piece of my soul had returned.

Go check him out if you haven't already. He's the awesomest guy in the world. :)

Oh Hai.

Weekends are so boring. Nobody updates their blogs cos they're all out of the house 'living their lives' or something. pffft! Losers :P

Back to school tomorrow after my week-long break. -_-

This house is warm and safe, and school is still so harsh and stressful for me. I really hate it. :(

I won't bore you with any more. I know how you hate whingers.



I had a really awful dream last night.

Someone hacked into my msn on my pc and abused my friends and then fucked up my blog. :/

The bad thing was, it was like, a really long dream too. It just went on and on...

That... sucked. -_-

Also on msn though, i've started making my own smileys. woot

It's surprisingly easy. :)

As long as you know how to blend 19x19 pixels in MS Paint so they don't look funny. :P

Well, i'm out of things to say.

Please check out my other blog and leave feedback. Thanks. I might post on it again later tonight or something, seeing as i'll be in for another night by myself.

www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/127538 It's nice when you find a song that matches your mood.

New email and heatwave.

So i'm going to try out using a new email address for people to contact me on, because my previous one also doubled as my personal one, which i don't think was a good idea.

icekeebyblu@hotmail.com is my new email address. It can also be found in the sidebar. For all things mirrorboy/blog-related please use that one. :)

I won't be using it for MSN though so don't randomly add me. :P

I'll still be using my other one a lot so if that's how you already contact me, don't worry about changing. And i'll be using my other one for MSN. I just won't be putting it on my blog anymore.

If you're set on having my MSN, send an email to my new address and i'll let you know. :)

Okay. That should put my heart at rest just a little more.



Just so you know, it's still freakin hot! To put it into perspective, this is the worst heatwave my state has experienced in over a century! T_T

'With fire-fighters, rail operators and power companies on red alert'. We've got news headlines like 'Heatwave Hell'. Cities are close to breaking their all-time temperature records. Some are getting up around 45 degrees C, and that's 113 degrees F!

And all you others are complaining about the snow and cold?! Gimme a break! Agh we're melting like snowmen! If i had snow i would dive into it and rub it all over my naked body.

For realsies.

Hell on Earth.

K so i know i haven't been posting that much... and what i have posted recently hasn't been that exciting. :P

Well frankly, there's not much to report because i'm still on my school break and i'm just trying to relax. School does, however, start again on Feb the 2nd. *CRIES

And the break i just had was Australia's ONLY decent break ALL YEAR. I'm basically gonna be back at school for the whole year until mid-December. And we only get another 6 weeks worth off from school until then. :'/

That's right. No sort of Summer Break for us. Aussies will be at school while you other bastards are out relaxing. -_-

So i hope you enjoyed my company on MSN and such. I can only be on during my daytime on weekends from February. That sucks cos i have a lot of good American friends and they'll probably be in bed by the time i'm home. :/



Of course, i am dreading going back to school. It really is a hell on Earth. Being the ONLY OUT GAY SUDENT in the fuckin place is HARD. I mean there's a reason why i'm the only 'out' one! Cos we're a small city too, the others are small-minded and basically immature. That's why i KNOW i don't belong here and as soon as i can, i'm moving to Melbourne. I can't wait for that, but it's probably another 3 years away. :(

I am going to try to go back a different person, more confident and minus the glasses, but i know just how depressed i was last year. School was beating me down. I also have a good idea that school is to blame for my pretty severe self-confidence and self-esteem issues.

I guess i'm gonna have an idea of how everything is gonna go for the year by the first week. I'm gonna know who's in my classes, where our areas are, if i've got teachers i can trust, if the others have grown up (or not), and if i'm a different person or i've reverted to my old self.

You can wish me luck and tell me to be strong, but it's not that easy. It's goddamn hard living here where people literally hate me for being gay.



When i am back, i will either be posting more cos there will be more to post about, or i'll be posting even less cos i will be too overwhelmed with school to feel like it.

<3

That's it for now i guess. I'm trying to milk what's left of my school break cos it's slipping away very quickly.

Links and other crap.

All the random stuff i wanna get out.

And yes, i feel better after an early night. :)



I've added a few new blogs to my links recently, and they're still in their early stages, so you can jump on board before they take off for stardom. ^_^

Of course, i have no idea if they'll turn out decent... or end up taking the same path as Archer's Blog. Too bad... cos i was really liking his blog too...



Rock You. By a gay 17yo from New Zealand...

The Awakening. By Aahsazyl. He's pretty insane. lol

Writing Fiction. A gay 19yo... who writes long posts. hahaha

Doubtful Animal. A friendly 16yo from the UK.

Gentleman's Romance. ANOTHER blogger from California. :P

And Joie to the Max, which has been around for a while. Really cool. :)



Moving on. I've got a bunch of people on my msn list who added me and haven't even spoken to me yet. It's kind of creepy; like i'm being stalked in a tiny way... -_-

I am NOT going to initiate first conversation with someone who added me. Adding me is fine, but i thought it was only common courtesy for them to say hello!

At the end of the week (Saturday), i will be deleting and probably blocking all those people who haven't spoken yet. If i'm not online, at least send me an offline message or something. I'm sure you added me for some reason, so speak up or you won't get another chance!



For followers of Landyn's blog who don't talk to him personally, i'm letting you know that he's okay, but he doesn't get much internet time anymore cos he's back living with his family, so he won't be posting much for a while.



Also, this is a reminder for everyone to call me mirrorboy, and not by my real nickname. I'm not that comfortable with everyone calling me anything else other than mirrorboy in the blogging world. Please. And don't be a prick and do it on purpose after this post.



And my e-relationship is going good. I'm more in love with Jake every day. (heart)



And if anyone has sent me any important emails that need replying and i haven't replied, send me a reminder, lol. I can't be stuffed going back and looking through them. :/



K. I've probably fogotten something important, lol. If i remember it, i'll just come back and edit it in later. :)

My contacts appointment is tomorrow in the morning. Wish me luck...

*crosses fingers

===>mirrorboy<===

Stay... fucking... positive...

Christmas Eve.

Okay. I'm in a bad/sad/angry (!) mood because of lots of little things that together, are not making me feel that happy.

1. I had my contacts appointment at the optometrist today...

But nope, because my eyes have deteriorated so much since my last appointment over a year ago, we need to get a different lens thingy for them. So now i have to wait until Jan 6 when my next appointment is to see if they'll be okay...

Okay... i can deal with that. Glasses for Christmas, again... Fine. I'm disappointed, but i'll survive.

2. Power went out for a second before, and i had to start the internet up again.

3. I KNOW tomorrow is going to be lame.

It always is.

I have spend the WHOLE day with my family. *shudder

You can choose your friends but you can't choose your family huh...

Okay... well, it's only once a year. We'll get through it...

4. I haven't seen my best online friend in ages. -_-

It's not really his fault cos i know he's been busy, but i just miss him so much. He means so much to me, more than anyone else in the world. I don't care if that's wrong. I just plain love him. And i miss him... so... so much...

5. Mum gave me the wireless router for Christmas...

I think it's the sort of model that won't fit in with what we've already got though.

Plug A into B. B is on C? No it's not! C doesn't have a B!! I must have the wrong sort of C...

If you know what i mean. If you don't, you get the idea anyway.

Everything we get fails...

I said to Mum "Kind of a bad year, huh..."

"Nah... Kind of a bad life."

Joy in my house...

We may have to get a different router.

6. Mum has a dental problem and has been in pain. And fucking hell, have i been hearing about it... Whenever she's in a bad mood, she always, always, always drags me down with her.

7. Doesn't sound like i'll be getting MY money which Mum BORROWED from ME over 6 months ago anytime soon.

8. It has been so fucking hot recently.

That's an Aussie Christmas for ya. Hot, dry, and full of flies, and also usually includes a bunch of hairy middle-aged blokes standing around a barbecue, having a beer. Woot...

9. I was trying to help out a person on msn earlier today, but every time i tried to make them feel better, even when i shared something that was very personal to me to try to relate to them, they would say something that pissed me off. For some reason it felt like he tried to make me feel bad for things i said.

Okay... Not worth my time. I shouldn't have even bothered.



BAH.



Well, i just had a look at some pics i photoshopped, and laughed my ass off. I'll post some of them before i post this.

I feel a little better already.

Anyways, it's always good to vent.

Don't whinge to me about me being a whiny little bitch. Don't forget it's my blog and i can say whatever i want.

And i haven't forgotten the good things in my life either, so there's still hope for me.

Merry Christmas. I can't wait til it's over. <3

Try and have fun everyone.

===>mirrorboy<===

Oh, and by the way, this was my 99th post. Tomorrow will be #100. Dunno what i'll do for it...

Random stuff about my life, again. :P

- I can say fairly confidently that the sources of yesterday's sore neck were my new pillows.

After i slept on my old ones last night, i felt much better this morning. I'll keep my new ones though, cos they look really gay in their pink and purple satin pillow-cases. ^_^

- On Wednesday i've got my contacts appointment at the optometrist. I'll be trying them out and i'm hoping that my eyes will be able to tolerate them... So if all goes well, from Wednesday, i won't have to wear my glasses anymore. :)

*praaaaaaays

- Unfortunately i can't personally thank the 8 people who sent me Amazon moneys recently cos i don't have all of your email addresses. However, it does mean a lot to me that you all care so much. So thanks so much! I'll put it to good use. Promise. <3

- I've become an obsessive smiley user on msn. Watch out. lol - Mum's sitting out here in the kitchen while i'm typing, looking through a magazine and reading out articles to me... like her horoscope... -_-

- I giggle like a little boy when i use Photoshop to alter pictures of my cats so they have massive eyes and such...

- Oh, and i also giggled my head off when one of the short Wallace & Gromit movies was on TV the other night. It was 'The Wrong Trousers'. Seriously, if you have seen Wallace & Gromit and do not absolutely looooove it, you do not have a soul. Gromit is my MSN pic for now. <3

I used to watch them all the time when i was a really young kid growing up. When i watched it again the other night i felt like i was young and carefree again. The memories...

I will always love them.

- Also on memories, all my life Christmas had been a happy time for me. I think it always seemed to be the general 'air' of Christmas that made me happy...

This year, i'm kind of... meh... This one's gonna suck.

We have no decorations or tree whatsoever, so now the 'air' just smells of strong incense. *sneezes

I'm going to be getting very few presents from anyone... I think Nan's getting me a razor. Oh... uhh woot...

And Mum will be paying me $400!!

That she borrowed from ME half a year ago... gah!!

If i'm lucky she said she might get me wireless internet though, so that's cool. :)

- Heheh... Well i'm still positive. Christmas may be 'meh' but i'm in a generally good mood. It's amazing what a break from school can do for me. I'm actually in a good mood! Can you believe it?!

I see things very differently now compared to when i had school every weekday... I'm just chilling out, and having fun. It's nice. :)



- That's about it for now, although i just posted a few more cat pics before this... It's easier than putting them with this because the writing around pictures always f**ks up for me. lol :)

So... yeah... lol

This was perhaps my latest post, ever. :P

I need sleep... =_=



lotsa love,

===>mirrorboy<===

Things i hate... (nothing too serious lol)

Just a 2nd post to wrap up the day like i promised...

Here's a list of things that i really hate...

1. Spellcheck - I despise spellcheck! Do you think i need spellcheck? My OCD is my personal spellcheck! I'm a perfectionist with OCD so i proofread everything i write. I'm also (if i may say so myself :P) really good at English skills, so what i write is fine. The things that REALLY bug me are those stupid green lines that tell you to reconsider every second line. They're all over my story. Why can't i just turn the bloody thing off?

2. My oven - ahh... my arch-nemesis. The bitch never lights when you want it to. Many a time i have nearly suffocated on the gas...

3. People on msn who say goodbye to you as they're getting off and then sign out before you can say goodbye to them back. :(

4. People on msn who suddenly disappear in the middle of a conversation for no reason. (haha sorry Landyn). ;D

5. And people who 'nudge' you on msn. OH HELL I HATE THAT.

I'm a cranky boy on msn lol.

6. Forwarded chain emails. "Oh my God! I'd better send this email to seven of my friends in the next hour or i'll have a year of bad luck!!"

7. Country music lol.

8. Windy days. My hair goes insane. Actually, on weather, i like dark rainy days better than hot sunny ones. I guess i'm just weird though. lol

I love the rain...

9. My school's clock. It goes forward by a few seconds every day so i'm always changing my watch so that the time matches up with the bell...

Then again, maybe it's my watch that's wrong... lol

10. Watching TV when you're about to go to bed and then having a show like Seinfeld come on. I'm a sucker for late-night comedy. :P

11. Always writing in lists of eleven but only being able to come up with ten different ideas.



I'm off to bed now. G-night, love,

===>mirrorboy<===



And thanks for caring about my lip. It's fine now. :)