Souls.

Today i wonder if souls exist.

What makes me, me?



I'll warn you now. :P

In order for me to not sound like a raving lunatic (although i probably still will), you must be willing to put what you know aside for now, and just go with what i say. It's probably the most out-there thing i've ever written and makes very little logical sense. :D



Okies.

The notion of a soul is quite romantic. It is a pure essence inside of you, inside of everyone. It is you. It is what feeds your 'heart' and your 'mind'.

I know i've touched on this before in my Humans post. I said that i believe that how a person thinks and behaves is determined by our surroundings. What we see as 'good' and 'bad' is determined by what see and are told.

But is that it? Is that all? Are we 100% sponge, acting upon only what we soak up? Or is there something else, so deep we can't even see it, driving us?



In most cases, children mirror their parents. That can be explained by the 'you become your surroundings theory'. But let's say that this happens because your soul, and your parents' souls matched. So, they were brought together to exist alongside one another. Was it meant to be? Can you imagine living as the child of other parents that you know of?

Ask yourself this. If instead of your parents, you had been born to someone else. Would you be a completely different person?

If there was one small part of you that was the same, inside, in your mind or your heart, would that be a part of you that is pure you? That no matter what happens, no matter where you grow up, will always be there? Is this a result of your soul?



On the 'meant to be' thing between children and parents. I guess you could easily call that soulmates.

There are friends that you come across, completely by chance. At some point in time, in both your lives, you cross paths, and from then on you are inseperable. I suppose it's like it was meant to be.

And there are people that you love so deeply, you feel like, together, you are one. When they suffer, you suffer, and when they feel joy, you feel joy. A connection runs so deep between you and them...

And you can not see it, but it is there. And it is strong.

So if the connection exists, what is it connecting? It certainly isn't anything physical.



Let's look at the facts against souls and soulmates.

Your genes match your parents. So even if you grew up away from them, some parts of you would still mirror them. That's hardly souls, just science.

And if are parents soulmates, then why are there some such terrible mismatches?

You could become friends with people because you have similar interests. You have similar senses of humour. You are just similar.

And i'm not certain, but what we call 'love' can probably be explained by science too. It's just a bunch of chemical reactions inside you, that create emotion for someone, and at the same time exist inside another person, for you.



I have no answers. But i am writing from the point of view that souls exist. So i do have theories. ^_^

Yes, genes will make some parts of you similar to your parents, but not all of you. Like i said before, if 0.00000000000001% of you is not determined by outside influences, and inside influences like genes, then that part of you, is you. And that small part could be the most crucial part of all. And that crucial part might be the missing piece of the puzzle that are your parents' souls together. So in your existence you are brought together.



Now in order to explain mismatches, i must first determine why souls exist. ^_^

If they do exist, i believe it would be to learn. We are born, and we live our life, and then we die. While living, we experience emotions. We experience sadness and happiness. We experience what makes us feel good, and what makes us hurt deep down. We experience every emotion, and feeling. We experience everything imaginable.

When we have learnt enough, we die and our souls are set free, full of knowledge of what it is to truly exist and live. And perhaps our souls all go back to where they came from, and become one again, and pass on their knowledge. And when they reach their destination it is like a drop of food colouring in an ocean.

It is no big deal if a soul did not learn enough, or had to move on before it was their time. For another soul, eager to learn, will be created from the soul pool. Inside that soul will be a little part of every other soul. And it comes to existence to fill in the blanks, to know what it is to live. So if one soul missed out on something, or everything, another soul will take on the job.

If that is true, then we are all connected. In our existence we are all unique puzzle pieces from one huge beautiful picture. Sometimes we find a match and so experience a 'meant to be' feeling. Although perhaps more accurately between friends or partners, it was a 'match by chance'.



Okay that turned into a tangent. Back to why there are mismatches.

While a tiny part of us is our soul, the rest isn't. While our soul learns, the rest of us does as well. And that part of us may be learning what is not best for it. So if a child and a parent do not match, it may be because what the other parts of us know and feel and have learnt, clash with what our souls want. It gets in the way of what could have been a good match and the 'soul relationship' never reaches its full potential.



I'll go on to 'love' now.

Love is the ultimate definition of soulmates. People who are perfect matches, created for each other. Unfortunately we can't always find them. And maybe, i dunno, there isn't a soulmate for everyone. Perhaps part of what our soul needs to learn and feel involves doing it for ourself.

But that doesn't mean soulmates can't be made.

I think if we find someone that makes us happy, someone that fills us with joy, and makes us feel complete, our souls would change. And that change would be a good thing, because it brings our souls closer to their destination, and that could be to become one with itself. Our soul pool could be full one day, with no more need to learn. Souls would have done what they needed to do, and spend the rest of eternity, happy.



Jeez i'm a raving-mad lunatic. lol

Humans.

I'm not sure i even have the power to fully articulate how i feel about this, so please ignore me if i make no sense. :)

Do you ever get the feeling, that as human beings, we've just really stuffed everything up?

Our lives as a whole are full of war, hate and fear. We can't even coexist anymore. We actually kill each other. Our countries invest millions of dollars trying to figure out better ways to kill our enemies, who are humans just like us. It breeds hatred for other people, when the only difference is their skin colour, or the country they come from, or their religious beliefs.

Millions of people starve. Those who lose money end up on the streets. People murder, and abuse, and steal. Our economy has collapsed on itself. There are homeless and jobless. And we're polluting our own Earth.



Why are we here? What are we aiming for in our lives?

Is it to be the boss? As humans, we seek to control everything. We use animals like machines for our own benefit. Then we created our own machines that do what we want. We tame animals as pets and we own them. We seek promotions, to climb the job ladder, to have people below us, to have people working for us.

We've tamed the skies and the seas. What is left? The moon? Planets and stars? We don't have control of them yet, so we dream of the day when we do. Past empires had the sole aim of expanding. They wanted to own more land. They wanted to crush other cities and people, so that they could be the number 1.

Our lives are about trying to be the number 1. We want to be in control, and when we meet another human, we want to be better than them.

But why? What is the point? Do we aim for higher and higher because it betters our lives?

And when our lives are better, we're happier. That is success.

But we as humans created success itself. We created money, and jobs, and the ideal family and group of friends. We created fame and fortune. It was all created by us.

We aim for it, but we have no real reason, because our definition of success is one we created.



We have religion. Why is there religion? Is it to control the masses? Is it to give us a set of rules to follow, to maintain peace and order?

Religion has been fuel for war. It has been fuel for hate. It has been fuel for murder. If religion exists to create peace, then it has failed. People construe words of holy books and use them as excuses to further their own agendas.

Civilisations have started war, because their religious beliefs are different to their enemies. Gays like me have been killed because people take the words of a 'God' and twist them into a reason to kill, even up to this day. People in past have been banished from society, and had their lives ruined or put to an end, if they break rules set by their fellow peoples' religion.



(I believe) our lives are 100% contrived.

If a baby born today was to be put into a world with prehistoric man, they would grow up like the people around them. Sure, they might stand a bit taller and have less hair, but we are no different inside to people from those days. The only difference we have is the world we grew up in.

And we grow up in families and go to schools. We are taught to respect people in power, and use our manners. We learn what is funny and not funny, and what is bad and good. We are supposed to get jobs and contribute to society and get married and play happy families and reproduce, so that the cycle repeats itself.

The lives we live today can not really be the 'real' (perhaps 'intended') 'human way'. We live in a world that we created slowly, with each layer coming about by chance. Think of the famous inventors throughout history, and of the explorers, and leaders. What if one had been trampled by an elephant? What if one had been stabbed or shot, or never been created in one moment of sex? Our lives would be drastically, unimaginably different than they are now.

Success might have a different meaning. We would be aiming for different things. Good and bad would have different actions associated with them.



Am i making sense? lol. I was thinking about this while i was walking home from school because my iPod wasn't charged. :P

I'm sorry if things that make sense in my head don't translate.



So everything we know today was created by past events. Every event, major to minor, has shaped how we live our lives. If things had taken a slightly different turn, thousands, or even hundreds of years ago, we would have an incredibly different life today.

Humans only live like we do because we grew up in the world around us. It's too bad that things have kind of imploded, with war, and racism, and homophobia, and crime, and money and everything like that.

So why do we live, and what is the meaning for our existence? Honestly, i don't think the meaning of life for humans is any different from the meaning of life for a cat, or a snail, or an ant, as the only difference i see is our brain complexity.

What the meaning is, though, i have no clue.

Maybe it is something we can't even articulate, with the words we created. ;)

Religion. Yup. Here We Go!

I haven't posted about this yet cos it's really hard to put what i think into words. lol

Forgive me if i don't make sense!!



I'll just get to it, cut the cheese, cut to the chase, jump in the deep end, fry the egg, stamp the poodle... nevermind

What do i believe? Well, i believe in an afterlife. I like to believe in an afterlife. I like the thought that there is something beyond this life and that we don't just drop dead and that's the end.

I don't really believe in a God/Gods though. I don't believe in any religion. I don't believe that some almighty being is watching us as we go about our lives and is listening to our thoughts and prayers. I don't believe in someone/something telling us what is right and what is wrong. I don't like it that we're told we have to live our life by a set of rules or we'll endure an eternity of agonising hell, literally.

There's the whole 'being gay is a sin thing'. (Yes i made up a word) Religians can say that if i wanna be sodomised then i'm going against God and sinning. Well sorryyyyy but why would God make being gay a sin, and then make ME gay, dooming me before i was born?

Also, if there is a God, why can't He just show us? lol

I also believe in evolution. And i see humans just as animals, albeit rather smart ones.

Things like that don't make sense to me.

BUT i do get why some people do believe in religion. In defense, i realize that The Bible and stories like that are open to interpretation.

I'm not going to get into that cos that's not the focus of the post and i know a lot of people are aching to rebut my views right now. :)

And now might be a good time to say that i'm only 15 and don't know everything, so don't POUNCE on me for what i think. :D

I don't hate religion. I used to cos i saw it as a way to attack/spread hatred for others and use your religious beliefs as a shield. But i see now that not everyone is an extremist. lol. And i'm very accepting.

And i would love it if everyone could believe what they want to believe... but not force it upon others.



Religion actually really interests me, a lot. Beliefs and everything are such a fascinating thing for me. I'm intrigued by how people interpret religious stories and all that.

The Sunday night religious program was on my radio last night, and i ended up lying in bed listening to the whole thing, and it went till 2am. They were having a good discussion, with several points of view, and people were calling in with all sorts of beliefs and questions. It was good fun. lol

At one point they were talking about The Bible and how some of it was fact, like Jesus did live and was crucified, and that other parts were stories that are meant to guide us, like Adam and Eve or Noah's Ark. I undertand that. :)

Religion is one of my interests and that's why i like blogs like Just Me, Naturgesetz and Where I Stand. I have had some quite interesting discussions with some of these guys. lol

So yeah, umm... Does this post have a point?

Nope.

I'm pretty sure i made no sense.

love