A Good Day!?

That's right, i had a good day, mostly because my gay youth group meeting thingy was on and was cool. :)

There were only a handful of us there today, and the 'meeting' wasn't really 'on' because the organiser had to take care of a shop downstairs, so we hung around in there with her just chatting. It was a lot more relaxed than last time, and i actually talked to someone this time too! *gasp*

So that was cool. :)

The group is working on making some stickers for the next few weeks that we're going to try to get businesses around town to put up on their windows to show that they're 'gay-friendly'. As well as a few other things.

I really like this group. I can't wait til i really get into it. I can be myself here more than anywhere else cos people around me are actually gay! How amazing! lol



I've got some things planned for my 150,000 views milestone - BIG things. The way i blog will be a lot different from then on. You'll see some different sides to me in different ways.

I'm really excited about it. I think it's gonna be a fun change. I can't wait.



Here's today's music link. www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/142057

love.

*smile*

Yes, so i went to the group.

And i saw some real life gay people. :O

There were about a dozen people there. Guys and girls. They all looked a bit older than me, but they seem like really nice people.

Today a visiting (straight lol) Scottish guy was there talking about what stuff is like for gays over in the UK. So most of it was listening to him. And the group was talking about laws and stuff.

I didn't really do any talking but i might get an opportunity to introduce myself next week when there's not a guest there. And i won't be as nervous next time hopefully. lol

All in all. A decent day. This sounds like a good thing for me.

I'll be back. :)

Link, bitches.

Just reminding people that if you link to my blog, tell me so i can link back! lol

When i go browsing i occasionally find another blog that links to me without me even knowing. I want to know who links so i can add you to my blog list!

Also, if you write a gay/bi blog, we should link! Leave a comment or email. Now! Cos linking is fun. It increases traffic for everyone. It's how you discover new blogs and new people. :)

So there. Leave a comment if you want an mboy link, or if you already link me but don't see your blog in my links. Any blogs are welcome... No hardcore porn though, and no kiddie porn. lol

K. I'm sick of saying 'link'. :P



You know what's lame? Hardly anybody blogs on weekends. People are like, totally obsessed with social lives or going out and doing things. Geez. Lame. lol

Anyways. The internet is boring on the weekend, and that sucks cos that's the only time i can use it during the day. :P

What else...

Oh, thanks for all the support about the gay group thing. Just so you know, when i said it was 'really gay' i didn't mean that as a bad thing. I'm quite a 'gay' person myself. So i actually meant it as a good thing. And i would really like to get out and do 'gay' things, rather than come home after school and do nothing. So i hope it works out.

That's it for now. I think.

love.

Another week down.

Well, my second crappy week of grade 10 is over. It's hard to believe i've only been back for that long. It felt like a bloody lifetime to be honest.

Anyways, info and stuff from that gay youth group arrived in the mail yesterday, and they meet on Monday's at 4. So it looks like i'll be going. Man, i'm so nervous. I don't know any gay people my age, so this is a huge thing for me. :/

It also sounds... really... gay. ^_^

There are rainbow colours all over the pages, and words like, 'fighting homophobia', 'united', and 'activism'.

Really gay? I'll fit right in. ;)

And my devout Catholic Grandmother will be dropping me off and picking me up. Aww ain't she sweet. :) My family accepts me at least.

And at least i'm making progress (hopefully).



I've got a bunch of homework to catch up on over the weekend. Ugh. Just what i need. Learn more words for French, make a slideshow for English, write a story for Creative Writing.

At least i'm good at writing. Creative writing is a good subject for me. It might get the right words flowing through my blood again and i can make some decent progress on my big story. (Which has been too hard to concentrate on recently.)



On another note, what's with all the creepo comments people have been leaving in the past couple of weeks? (and it's not just one person). People say i'm depressing or boring. Or i whinge and whine. I don't get it.

I mean, if you don't like my blog, that's fine. If you don't like me, that's fine. But you don't need to leave a comment telling me how awful i am or that i don't deserve this 'popularity' or whatever.

I always have to bite my tongue when i reply. I hate doing that, cos i like swearing. :)



But seriously.

I write about my life. That's what this blog is about. It has ups and downs. When life is good, i write happy posts, and when life is sad and crashing down around me, i write less happy posts. I don't force people to read, and i'm certainly not trying to depress people. In fact, a lot of the time when i talk to people, they're coming to me BECAUSE they feel sad and i'm good at making people happy.

*cough remember aj? cough* hahaha

And i don't indulge in inflating my ego. I spend most of my time trying to stop me from grinding myself into the ground by putting myself down.

So for the record. I don't think i whinge, mr. anonymous. So FUCK YOU.

:)

love.

Finally found some time. :P

I'm back!

*dances

I've got the computer to myself for once tonight... finally... so i can post proper.

I'll catch you up on a few things in my life... Comment on what you will...


I went shopping with My Mum and Nan after school today... Nan didn't say anything about my sexuality. I can't say i expected her to - our family never talks about anything important. :/

Still, it could have been much worse! So i'm not complaining. :)


I haven't been contacted by the woman who runs the gay youth group yet... I do still have the former gay student's number that Mrs OC gave me and told me to call about it though, so i guess i'll call him on Saturday or Sunday... (See Thursday's post if you don't remember)

I'm kind of nervous, and kind of excited haha...

The thought of seeing a real life gay person... wow... :P


School is still sucking big-time, but only 2 weeks and 6 days left and i will get a break from it all. Let's just hope i pass... O_O


I seriously need a haircut... My hair is just SO thick and it grows way too fast. When i get out of the shower i have perfect emo hair. :D

Then it gets dry and goes all wavy... :/

I would make a great emo... You all like emos don't you? :D


I'm making good progress on my story again. I think i'll make a post about it sometime on the weekend... If you're lucky, you might even get 2 posts. *dances

- To make up for my crappy posts recently. :P

- Cos i could talk about my story forever even if it bores the shit out of you. :D


My Mum and i are getting along better now. She's doing a nursing course at the moment, and is in the middle of her very important tests which she needs to pass. I guess that's why she's been a bit snappy recently.

She only has 2 days left, and if she passes, this means she can work as a nurse in a hospital.

Also, she starts working in the evenings again, which means i can use the computer for a couple of hours. :)


*Still praying for the internet in my own room...

Although at the end of the year, we will get a fair bit of money from our tax returns, and she owes me like $350 or something (don't ask me why)... so if she pays me back (although that seems unlikely because she's not very good at it), i will be able to afford it. :)

*Fingers crossed...


And i put up 3 new polls, so take a look at them and vote, and as always, comment about what you picked and why in the comment section if you want to.


I'll get back to proper posting tomorrow.


To my blog buddies...

Matt, you are truly awesome for taking care of AJ like that.

AJ, i still think you are really brave for putting yourself back out there.

Landyn, i got your email and you really made my day... actually, my week. I love you so much.


Love you and all my readers,

===>mirrorboy<===

Another week off to a GREAT start.

Hey everybody. Sorry i missed yesterday. I lost track of time.


Today was pretty crap.

For no reason i can think of, i was sore all over. My leg hurt when i walked, my back hurt when i sat down, my hand hurt when i wrote.

Also that boy that i got suspended came up to my face, shook my hand hard and in a really snide tone said "thanks for getting me suspended, mate!"

He's pretty much the most intimidating person you could ever meet...


My Journalism interview is due tomorrow. I taked to my Journalism teacher about it not being suitable for playing in front of the whole class because of how personal it got, so she's just going to listen to it herself and mark it...

I still have another 20-30 mins of scratchy tape to try to get down though. And then i have to write the Feature Article about it... Fuck...

That's what procrastination gets you.


Regarding my last post, i was actually told that i sounded like a 'runny nose spoilt little bitch'...

Well, that's how i felt at the time. Believe it or not, my Mum and i get along most of the time, but when i was writing that, she was really fucking pissing me off, so that's the reason for my post. I had been dealing with such a hard time recently, i just needed to vent a little.

*sighs... Mini-rant over...



After school today, i went down to our Youth Centre and enquired about that group of people who meet up the street once a week. I gave my name and phone number to the lady behind the desk, so i'm expecting a call from the woman who runs it sometime this week.

Hope it turns out well...


I also ran into my old cute Asian friend from Primary School... He has cool thick black hair now and he's damn cute...

Unfortunately... he's not gay. :P

I did take the opportunity to come out to him when he asked why i was up the street. I don't think he really cared though.


Isn't it funny how easy it is to come out now? It was such a quick spur-of-the-moment thing.


Speaking of coming out, my Mum said to me on Sunday that she'd told my Grandmother i'm gay.

Hmm... I'm kind of angry that she didn't even ask my permission. O_O


She said that Nan took it fairly well...

Knowing my Nan, she was probably in shock. She's quite religious - a churchgoer, with pictures of God and Jesus hanging around her house. She also always says 'God bless' when you're saying goodbye.

It will be interesting to see if i keep hearing that now...

She probably thinks i'm going to Hell. :P


Anyways, i'm just kind of sad right now. Life is so frustrating and the holidays are only crawling towards me.

11th of December and i will finally be free of school.

I won't have to put up with my daily shit anymore...


Wish me luck... in everything really...

loves,
===>mirrorboy<===