I may have hurt some people with what i said a few hours ago.
I want to emphasize the fact that the 3rd and 4th paragraphs are written about how i felt on MONDAY night, not tonight.
I am not my sanest at 2am in the morning, believe it or not.
Like i said in the 6th paragraph, i am OKAY for now.
Yes, my life is incredibly hard right now, but Mirrorboy is not a quitter!
The (surprising) fact that i've been inundated with worried (and furious) emails and comments from people who adore me in just the past few hours, shows me just how much i mean to you... and i didn't actually know that i did.
I have been through SO MUCH IN MY LIFE so far, like learning to accept myself and my own sexuality. I am not going to give in now.
I will hurt. I will cry. I may bleed. I will dream about ending it (but i dream about everything).
I will NEVER give in.
I'm so sorry if i hurt any of you. I didn't think there were people out there who actually looked up to me.
Now i am determined not to let you down.
I take all of your emails and comments to heart. You mean so much to me.
I'm thinking i should go talk to OC tomorrow. That's what everyone seems to be suggesting. I really do think i need to talk to an adult about what i'm going through.
Again, i am so sorry.
If there's anyone in the world i don't want to hurt it is you, my amazing readers who've shown me so much love and compassion, and have been there for me through my toughest times.
Mirrorboy will be okay.
And he loves you so much for caring.
===>mirrorboy<===
PS. perhaps 'Last breath' wasn't the best title for the post. :)
