My head and my (lack of) lust.

The poll results are in.

Story stuff - 15%
Stuff about Aus - 9%
More vids and pics - 10%
More about me - 43%
More about boys - 21%

The clear winner was me. Obviously i'm just so awesome that you can't get enough of me. ;D

2nd was boys... and that's the opposite of me... o_O

That's a little confusing, but oh well, i'll try to add a bit more of them in too. :P

Then the others came in at about equal 3rd, still with a decent amount of votes. There are people out who want to hear about or see them as well, so i will post about them soon too. :)



But as promised, here's a personal post about me. :)


You may have gathered from the title that this post is about 'lust', as in 'sexual desire'.

Well to be honest, i don't think that i have strong sexual desires.

My dick doesn't go up easily. I don't get turned on easily. It takes a long time for me to reach orgasm. Things that turn other people on don't do it for me.

I wank and stuff... and I CAN get turned on, but only through pretty hard porn (i'm NOT talking about any extreme stuff here) just a lot of moaning... moaning does it for me i guess, and i have a few kinks, but it always takes me a long time.

This isn't just with my dick, it's in my head. I just don't get really turned on.

I don't know... this makes me think that i'm not even capable of sex, because i'm just not a sexual being, i think.

I am much more into 'eye candy' than other porny stuff. I don't really care that much for porn actually. It's just so much harder for me.

And i don't think i'd be able to 'get there' in sex...



So sex doesn't matter to me. I could easily live without it, honestly.

But the problem is... sex DOES matter to a lot of other people... so that means... umm... i just don't think i could satisfy someone because that part of the relationship would be missing.

Great... So if i do find 'that boy' i won't be enough for him.

I just wish i could be normal. :/



Yeah. That's mirrorboy for ya...

Always just another thing standing in the way of happiness.

===>mirrorboy<===

Bah. Too much to do.

This is just a quickie post. :)

I'm gonna go back to my room soon and try to get some more done on my story. I'm in the midst of a big battle for an outpost, and the thing i'm most concerned with is making it interesting. There are only so many times you can have a battle before you start having the problem of deja-vu, it would seem...

I'm taking it paragraph by paragraph, just trying to push out the words, each one trying to be new and interesting.

The big problem is that I'm a complete perfectionist. Every single word has to be right before i can move on, and every little detail has to flow and make sense.

Oh my God, it's torture sometimes... :P



The poll is nearly over, so i'm looking for suggestions for the next one. Leave your ideas in the comments. :)

Should i have a particular theme or question, or another one similar to my current one?



Anyway, results tomorrow, and i'll post about 'me' (the winner) and something quite personal. It'll be interesting to see how many votes the others get though...

===>mirrorboy<===

Reflections of my habitat.

Haha first... http://blog.milkboys.org/article/discoveries/

Am i ever gonna live it down?? lol

-Also, you've got just over a day left to vote on the poll. So make sure you do, before the next one starts. (Suggestions are welcome for topics). :)



Today i had PE (sport/excersise and stuff) for the first 2 periods of school. I usually hate PE cos i SUCK at sport, and we also have to wear these daggy uniforms.

Sometimes it's fun though, like when we go bowling (yeah! i won last time! :P) or tennis which i don't suck at. Today, we went down to the beach for a walk. I like walking, because i don't fail at it. :)


Maybe it's something to do with the 'walking' itself. Maybe it was the absence of stress. Maybe it was the fact it was just the sand and the ocean and the seaweed and the shells... but today i actually appreciated the beauty of my little town.

I often put down this place. I mean it's boring as hell. There are no fun places to go. No cool things to do. There aren't any good shopping malls or anything. There are some attractions but nothing awesome. And forget about any sort of gay scene...

But today, i forgot about that... for a little while at least.



We caught the bus and headed down to the beach.

We went down the road between the short stone-layered cliff-faces.

We drove past the huge colourful playground around the blue lake.

We got out and walked up the green hills.

We walked amongst the succulent green bushes to get to the beach.

We stepped onto the soft white sand.

We walked under the bright sun.

We dodged the rising blue tide.

We walked alongside the big black sharp rocks, offset by the bright green behind them.

We passed a horse, galloping along the water's edge.

We looked out and saw the horizon - unobstructed by anything man made.

We got to the end of the beach, and saw the fisherman standing alone.

We went up to walk along the tall stone wall - the breakwater... and it hit me.


It hit me. A huge rolling blanket of blue-green, aqua and turquoise sea.

I was lost in it.

I hadn't been up there in as long as i could remember. I'd forgotten how beautiful the sea was.


It's amazing... and this is our sea. This sea is ours to enjoy.

We saw a fisherman catch a small wriggling shark at the end of it, then we walked back along the breakwater.

Most of the others headed along the bottom of the wall. Me and my friend walked along the top.

I'm damn scared of heights, and we were fairly high up. He kept lurching at me like he was gonna push me off. He loved it. I had a heart attack every time.

We were getting close to the bus, and we saw some people (tourists o_O) looking over the edge...

We looked over too, and saw a little seal floating lifelessly on the surface next to the wall amongst the little bits of seaweed.

It looked dead. Aww... that was sad. It was such a cute little thing too... My friend just laughed and pretended to shoot it (with a shotgun of course).

We headed down the steps, past the yellow flowerbeds, and onto the waiting bus, while our teacher was still coming.

When he did arrive, he said (something along the lines of) "Did ya see the seal back there? Putting on quite the performance..."

Huh? A couple of others got off to go have a look and my friend and i did the same...

Back up on the breakwater, we looked down, and the little bugger was doing twists and flips and somersaults in the water. It had big shiny black eyes and tiny little whiskers. It was the most adorable thing i'd seen in ages...

I was like, "Aww that is so cute."

My friend said a whale would eat it... then get beached on the rocks. Then pretending to be the whale he said "Eh... It was worth it!"

Yeah, the whale killing itself just to eat the baby seal... :P

My friend - he's bizarre. :D

Next time i head down to the beach i'll take the camera and get some pics.


In conclusion - my town ain't so bad. Hell, it could be a LOT worse.

We're on the coast. We have the beautiful sea. We have a lot of wildlife (compared to cities). We even have a few typical Aussie animals.


Still, i do want to move away when i'm older. I just don't feel that i'm suited to a place like this. I want the bustling city. I want the malls. I want the socialism. I want the scene. I want the jobs. I can't have that here...

I will remember my town fondly though.

I will be proud to say i grew up in such a beautiful place...

And i will return.

I will always return, to walk along the soft beach and dodge the tide, to get lost in the neverending blue sea, and to rediscover those special things i'd taken for granted when life has been so awful, stressful and mundane.

===>mirrorboy<===

This is about one of the most important things in my life.

One of the most important things in my life is my story - the one that i've been referring to a lot. Its name is 'Universes'.

It's around 172,000 words at the moment, but growing each day...


You all know how much writing means to me, and when i'm actually 'writing' stories, i put everything i have into getting it right. I draw on every bit of skill, creativity and knowledge that i have to create the best tale i can.

Every aspect of me goes into my story - from distant memories, to what i love, to my fears and dreams, and from my happy places to the darkest recesses of my mind...

I created everything from zilch. My story is part of me in a way you wouldn't believe.


My characters live within me, just as i live within each of my characters.

My worlds are created from my dreams.

The homes are where i long to live.

Their relationships are my fantasies.

The dark creatures are my nightmares.

The magic is everywhere.


My story is my everything.

And not only is it my passion, but my therapy. It keeps me sane and collected. It gives me focus. It gives me some meaning in this bland life.


At times, it can be my torturer...

Like right now. I STRUGGLE to find the RIGHT words!! I want to smash the bloody keyboard into the white page staring back at me under the full stop!

It hurts, but i always (eventually) find a way.

And it is SO worth it, when you get a shiver down your back, or laugh out loud, or bring a tear to your own eye.

That is the life of a writer.


At this moment, you don't actually know what is happening in the story... but if you want to find out, you have to vote for it!

...I'm sure i'll end up putting it in anyway though. :P



In the poll, it's pretty clear that you want to know more about 'me', but it's funny that coming 2nd is 'more about boys' and that has nothing to do with me really...

Speaking of voting, woot for Obama!


Here's a pic of Yoshi. Big woot for Yoshi!! <3

I don't do teddies. :P

Yeah, i think you liked my random facts. One of them seemed to stand out in the comments though. :P

Yesterday i wrote...

- I have a teddy-bear who i pretended was a boy when i was younger (just like an imaginary friend)...

(also how i discovered masturbation) :D

I'd better explain that one a bit better aye? ;)


Well, i must have been 9 or 10 or something...

As you (should) know by now, i was alone a lot. I didn't have any siblings and it was just me and Mum, so i had to entertain, and look after, myself a lot.

I used my imagination a lot of the time - from making little people out of Blu-Tack, to building Lego castles and staging swordfights, to tying string around the garden and then pretending the strings are lasers and i was a spy...

At night, i used my imagination as well.

I had imaginary friends. At night i would enter my own little world with them, and i would just lie there and imagine them, until i fell asleep. My little imaginings carried on from the night before, so i actually lived a mini imaginary life at night. I have some fond memories...

I had a teddy bear, and he was around the same size as me, so my friends lived in physical form through him.

One thing led to another, and i ended up emulating sex on one of my friends.


Umm... How do i say this...?

Friction = whoa!! ...and one surprised little boy.


That was how i discovered masturbation. Unfortunately my technique was awful (friction friction friction) and... it wasn't all that good for my... body parts.

Weeks later i started doing it different ways - each technique was better until i finally found the one that we all use.


There. I taught myself masturbation. I thought i'd made an amazing discovery... although i later found out that i wasn't the only one practicing it. :P


That wasn't TOO personal was it aye? :P

Lol i might need to tone it back a bit now... o_O

Keep those votes coming. ->

love,

===>mirrorboy<===



Before i go, here's a little picture i thought i'd leave you with.

This is Pit, from a game called Super Smash Bros.

Surprisingly, he's one of my favourites...

Milestone, and miles above the clouds...

So a week ago i celebrated 20,000, now it's time for the 30,000 views milestone celebration! woot! :P

Although i don't have the computer for long tonight so i can't go and find any cool stuff to celebrate with...


Still, the way the poll is going, it looks like you all want to know some more personal stuff about me, like what goes on inside my head, so that will be our celebration for tonight. :)

As all my friends know, being RANDOM is what i excel at... :P

So here are some random (and personal) facts about me...


- My next-door neighbour looks like Drew Carey.

- I have a thing for Rafael Nadal, and i love tennis. :)

- I think my first crush was for an Asian boy i knew in Primary School.

- I have a teddy-bear who i pretended was a boy when i was younger (just like an imaginary friend)...

(also how i discovered masturbation) :D

- I have a Nintendo Wii, and i kick everyone's asses on it. :P

(just a little geeky lol)

- I got done for truancy at school. :(

(Bad m-boy!) i know... but i've gotten past that now. :)

SPANK ME :P

- Lately i think i'm obsessed with angel-boys - even boys dressed as angels. Thinking of that toga-like thingy draped over their body revealing random spots of skin... oh, and wings! How awesome would that be...

We all fantasize... :D

- I'm an early-riser.

- It's easier to write when i'm tired... (isn't that weird)

- I cry really easily when i watch movies or TV (especially when bad things happen to the cute ones) ;)

- My favourite drink is Schweppes Lemonade. I can almost fall over in pleasure when i take a sip... (well, maybe that's a little exaggeration) :P

- I have bad circulation. My hands and feet get cold really easily and even in normal weather i get really cold and start shaking.

(All the more reason to find a boy i can cuddle, aye? Make me an offer.) :P

- I am a 'cat person'.

- No, i don't like meat, but i still eat it... One day i might be a vegetarian though... I'm not sure.

- My single biggest wish is to have a boyfriend i can share love with, but so far i've seen absolutely no sign of any decent ones in my life... That's kind of depressing... I get sad if i think about it too much. But i'm not depressed, so don't start with all that 'be patient - it'll happen' sort of stuff again! :P



Umm... that's it for now, but i've got more. If you want more just keep voting the way you are, because i've got something big on my mind i might spill, if you want me to. :)

Otherwise, you can keep voting for the other stuff. :)

I'm heading back to my room now, to work on my story, watch TV, and dream of angel-boys with wings in skimpy white outfits... :)

G'night, love,

===>mirrorboy<===



(Feel better soon Landyn)
big love to you <3<3<3

The Shopping Adventures Continue...

First, i've added some new blogs to my links, and also changed my layout a bit. :)

If you link to me and you're not over there with the others, please tell me so i can link back to you! :P


Anyways...

Shopping seems to be the only mildy entertaining thing that i do. A few of you liked my last post about it, so i thought i'd tell you about yesterday's adventure to Safeway. ;D


School finishes at 3:30. My Mum finished at 3:45 and was going to walk down to Safeway, so my Nan picked me up from school and we went home first so i could change clothes, and then we headed down to meet Mum who usually goes inside and starts shopping.

Before we left again i sneakily checked my emails (my addiction). I had to make sure my Nan didn't see what i was looking at though. She doesn't know i'm gay and i'd like to keep it that way. She has a habit of sneaking up on you, and she's also very nosy. :P

Then we got back in the car and headed up the street. I was of course, in the car alone with the small-talk champion of the world. Sometimes i don't even realise she's talking to me and i find myself just going 'uh-huh' and 'yeah' without even noticing.


Friday must be the day that teachers go shopping as well, because when we got to Safeway i saw... Golemn... grabbing a trolley (also known as a shopping cart).

I should explain. Golemn is what me and my friends call one of the science teachers at school. He's named after Golemn from Lord of the Rings, because of his head - big eyes and bald... you get the picture...

We have nicknames for almost all the teachers... but i won't go into that. :P


I went in and found Mum while Nan did her own shopping. When i did, she said that we would be having a quick shop today because she had to work at 5.

So of course, we have a certain sense of urgency, rushing down the aisles and grabbing the essentials. It's weird, that we're only in a hurry when we're looking at things i want, but she can spend a whole 5 minutes looking for the right tomato sauce or shampoo. O_O

I had to put aside my pretty-boy-watching for the while as we soon headed to the checkout. Once there, it was of course my job to go find Nan and try to get her to hurry up so we could leave.

She was over in the meat section. I can't stand the meat section. One, because i don't really like meat, and two, because the smell of BLEACH makes me want to throw up. :O===

aww crappy smiley lol


We got home and Mum got ready for work and i checked my emails. ;)

Nan's always good for takeaway so i hopped in the car and after we dropped Mum off we went and got pizza. Woot pizza. ;)


I talked to AJ and a few others on msn for a while. AJ was rubbing it in about his beautiful boyfriend Matt and his beautiful hair... ooh... hair... :D

(Yes i have a hair fetish, but only for the stuff on top of the head). ;)

That reminds me... you can always use my email to send me pics as well... hahaha :D


Anyways... if you've got any suggestions for the blog or even anything you'd like to know about me just comment or email. :)

haha well i hope that post wasn't too boring. I'll post about something different tomorrow, but that was just to let you know a bit more about my exciting life. :)

love,

===>mirrorboy<===

PS. VOTE on my POLL, if it works. :P