Friday, September 11, 2009

The Ball Started Rolling.

My first ever comment was from Jake Annonymous. He found me after i left a comment on his blog, which back then was called Boys Best Official. I think he made a post about not getting many comments, and i left a comment saying i got none. lol

I think we exchanged a few emails soon after that. Then we linked our blogs, and we followed what happened on the other's blog and commented sometimes.

That was really where it all started. Jake already had an audience, so with my blog link in his sidebar, i started getting a slow trickle of readers, and a few commenters.

I also made a couple friends on msn (the first was Lach) after they found me from Jake's blog. To me that was amazing. I finally could talk to people and be myself.

All of that was a big boost, in the way that it also gave me confidence that my blog could go somewhere. So i started emailing other bloggers hoping for links. Most of them simply didn't reply, but a few did. I got a few more linkers, and so more readers and commenters. I didn't feel like the effort i was putting into posts was wasted anymore.



Something that always really intrigues me is how one small action can have huge effects later on. If i hadn't found Jake's blog, and been linked and supported, many of you probably wouldn't be reading today. Lach, who was the first person to add me on msn, found me through Jake's blog. When i went to Melbourne back in April this year, Lach was the friend i met and hung out with.

There's more tomorrow. :)

Thursday, September 10, 2009

On The 17th Of September...

Mirrorboy and Mirrorboy's Blog turn 1!!

On the 17 of September, 2008, i nervously made my first post. I really didn't have any idea how blogs worked. I didn't know how to link blogs or change colours or anything. I didn't think i'd ever 'make it' in the blog world. It seemed so distant, and frankly unimaginable. It seemed like there were blogs out there full of people who knew what they were doing, while i was clueless.

So i made that first post, right before my Mum came home from work. Then it was my dirty little secret.

This was my first post.

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So... This is it huh? Who knows what adventures lay ahead for me and my blog in the days ahead... Hopefully i can make you laugh. Hopefully i can make you think. Hopefully you don't get bored with me O_O
This blog is going to be about me and what i think, so i'll give you the quick rundown about me.
I'm 15 years old. I live in Australia. I'm gay and mostly not 'out'. I'm an only child with a single parent. I want so badly to be a creative writer and am working on some books now.
Like me so far? If not, leave. :) (I was worried people would abuse me)
If you come back once i've started proper publishing you'll get to know a lot more about me. I hope you do, cos it will make a lonely boy very happy. :D
Thanks.
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It makes me quite angry that people seem to think that Mirrorboy, I, had it easy in blogworld.

In the whole month of september... i made 17 nervous posts.

I didn't get a single comment until the 27th of September.

In the whole month i got 6 comments, from about 3 people.

It's funny when i see new bloggers, who might get about a dozen comments a post, complaining about not getting as many comments as me. Yet when i started i got barely any, not even a single one for 10 days.

When i started, this gay/bi blog community of ours simply did not exist. There were no bloggers to ask for help. There were no people to link with and be plugged by and supported. There were no examples to follow. I was on my own. I really did have to build me and my blog up from scratch.



I thought to get people to read i had to make short posts, talk about amusing things and mix it up with funny videos and pictures of cute boys. Every post was a conscious effort to try to draw people in.

I was still finding my feet. I wasn't sure where i was headed, but i was still travelling.

Strangely, although hardly anyone read or cared, i never thought of giving up. And i'm glad i didn't.



Starting a blog was basically a cry for help. I was a lonely gay kid. I had no gay friends in the slightest. I was existing in a world that didn't even want me. I had no one to talk to about what i was going through, and i was as alone as possible.

The reason i started was to reach out. I wanted to meet some gay people who i could talk to. I wanted to feel like i belonged.

My blog is a success.



For the rest of this week, leading up to Mirrorboy's Birthday, i've decided i'm going to celebrate on my blog. At first i felt like dedicating a whole week of posts on my blog to my own blog was a bit over-the-top. But you know what, considering this blog has had an enormous effect on me and everything about me, i think it's justified.

Stay tuned for tomorrow and i'll continue my story. :)

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

If People Were Sims...

Everyone would be ridiculously attractive.

A house wouldn't be a home until you'd set fire to the stove.

To get a promotion you would talk to yourself in the mirror for hours, or play chess.

As soon as you meet a stranger they would wander into your house and start using your things.

Adding a new room would be an instantaneous thing.

Sex would be comical.

Getting dressed would mean simply spinning around.

Everyone would have a maid.

Your neighbour could be a criminal mastermind.

Oh, and everyone would be gay. :P

Monday, September 7, 2009

Answers. =D

Reminding you how it works...

The words given to me are in black. My answer will be in purple. My answer will be what i first think of when i see the word.

I got a lot of hard, unfair ones so i'll do them first. :P

WARNING: MY ANSWERS ARE UNFUNNY.


Professionalism - Work
Mitten - Warm
Vortex - Spinning
Spatula - Cupcakes
Pilgrimage - Moving
Overindulgance - Fat
Flag - Country
Idol - Singing :P
Traits - Qualities
Curtains - Windows
Lavender - Purple
Mountain - Pointy
Flask - Drink
Fallopian Tubes - 2-word-fail :P
Umbrella - Dry
Precious - Gollum
Rejection - Sadness
Wheatgrass - Wheat? :P
Fussy - Picky
Mountaintop - High
Heffalump - Elephant
Falafel - Food
Kryptonite - Superman
Instantaneous - Fast :P

I have no idea what these mean. :D

Volition - Violin
Onomatopoeia - Nomnoms
Discombobulation - Bob :P
Sequester - Quest
Spelunking - Flunking
Adimpleate - Adimbowl
Blateration - Bla
Cacozealous - Cockisjealous

Animals

Fish - Wet
Koala - Trees
Panda - Cuddly
Squid - Slimy
Cow - Milk
Felines - Better-than-canines :P
Cat - Cute
Dog - Smelly
Yeti - Hairy :P

Stuff

Clouds - Fluffy
Robot - Beep
Ninja - Weapons
Carpet - Soft
Remedy - Fix
Pies - Meat
Geek - Glasses
Pizza - Yummy
Laugh - Funny
Cough - Germs
Socks - Smelly
Word - Number

Others

Abandoned - Loneliness
Commitment - Devotion
Compassion - Important
Intelligence - Helpful
Thoughtful - Thinkful
Private - Secret
Beauty - Inside
Dreams - Bizarre
Wishes - Desires
Hopes - Wants
Love - Saviour
Deceit - Bad
Blue - Calm
Red - Passion
White - Bright
Five - Nine
Shaving - Smooth
Ocean - Water
Water - Drink (don't drink from the ocean though) :P
Sun - Sunglasses
Air - Breeze
Wind - Blow
Warmth - Cuddles
Life - 'sabitch
Lesbian - Hard
Gay - Hard
Girls - No-thanks
Boys - Yes-please
Friends - Important
Boyfriend - WANT
Australia - Mate
Canada - Funny-accent (as if i can talk lol)

You people never fail to be pervy any chance you get. :P

Vagina - Barf
Dick - Yummy
Balls - Hang (lol)
Foreskin - Skin
Condom - Contain (lol)
Lube - Slippery
Wanking - Fun
Fleshlight - Thrust
Cum - Sticky
Spunk - Cum? :P
Ejaculation - Good :P
Tissue - Wipe
Boxers - Briefs
Sagging - Butt
Sex - Want
Sexy - Boys

I feel dirty now -_-

Bodies (not rude bits) lol

Hugs - Squeeze
Cuddles - Intimate
Toes - Feet
Fingers - Grab
Legs - Walk
Lips - Kiss
Tummy - Lick :P
Hair - Orgasm

Names

Mirrorboy - Blog-name
Peter - I-know-many-Peters :P
Dan - Drool
Steve - Smart
Benjamin - Adorable
Wkboy714 - Cutenesh
Jake - lol

Thursday, September 3, 2009

New Blog Game. =D

Okay so this is how it works.

You comment, or email me, one word, or a series of separate, single words.

I then sum up my opinion on that object, place, person etc etc (you get the idea) in a one-word answer. :D

For example, you may suggest 'cat'.

And my answer would by 'cute'. :D

In can be any word at all. Even numbers, if you prefer. o_O

Nothing is off limits. You can even say your own name. :D

So give me some words, and i'll post my answers in a few days. :D

EDIT: Because some of you are determined on making this difficult for me and have suggested words that it is impossible to have an opinion on, like 'spatula' lol, my answers won't be a summation of my opinion, but rather what your word makes me think of. :D

Sunday, August 30, 2009

'Sup Me?

Oh hai y'all. ^_^

I haven't got that much to post about. Life is going pretty steady for me at the moment. I'm keeping it together pretty well, which is a change. lol. A nice one.

Though if life was turning to shit then i'd have something to post about. :P

- Haven't heard anything back about the jobs yet. It's no biggie though. I'm sure i'll find something soon so don't feel the need to comfort me. :P

- School is going okay. Lots of work to do but i can deal with that. It's a million times better than the other place i used to go to. 'Twas a school but i see it as more of a hellhole. :P But yeah things are going okay there.

- Practicing exposure with my psychologists. Now instead of sitting in a room talking about stuff we go out to a cafe or something and do it there. It's like, because being in social places makes me anxious and stuff, in a way it's trying to get me used to the situation. Also have to find a nice thing to say about myself every time i look in the mirror. That's hard to do though. Anyways they're really nice people. They probably know more about me deep down and what goes on in my head than anyone else. It's hard to explain what a difference they've made in my life so far, so i won't even try. But they're great. :)

Everything else that i care to think about is going okay. I've got school and homework during the week and i spend my spare time relaxing. Sounds like a decent plan aye lol.



On the blog side of things, well. Idk. Blogging has become way too high maintenance. I only read blogs that catch my eye now, and i only comment if i've got something important and/or witty to say. lol. There's just too many links in that sidebar to give everyone some of my time. I try to catch up with everyone on msn though.

I'm hoping i don't scare you all off talking to me now. lol. People seem to get the impression that i've got more important things to do than care about what's going on with them. That's untrue.
I just can't sit here for hours reading and commenting on dozens of blog posts. I still love talking to people on msn and i consider many of you good friends, and i'm still up for meeting new people (always am). :)

Hope everyone is doing okay. *love*



Because i'm doing okay for once some cataclysm is probably around the corner. lol

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Souls.

Today i wonder if souls exist.

What makes me, me?



I'll warn you now. :P

In order for me to not sound like a raving lunatic (although i probably still will), you must be willing to put what you know aside for now, and just go with what i say. It's probably the most out-there thing i've ever written and makes very little logical sense. :D



Okies.

The notion of a soul is quite romantic. It is a pure essence inside of you, inside of everyone. It is you. It is what feeds your 'heart' and your 'mind'.

I know i've touched on this before in my Humans post. I said that i believe that how a person thinks and behaves is determined by our surroundings. What we see as 'good' and 'bad' is determined by what see and are told.

But is that it? Is that all? Are we 100% sponge, acting upon only what we soak up? Or is there something else, so deep we can't even see it, driving us?



In most cases, children mirror their parents. That can be explained by the 'you become your surroundings theory'. But let's say that this happens because your soul, and your parents' souls matched. So, they were brought together to exist alongside one another. Was it meant to be? Can you imagine living as the child of other parents that you know of?

Ask yourself this. If instead of your parents, you had been born to someone else. Would you be a completely different person?

If there was one small part of you that was the same, inside, in your mind or your heart, would that be a part of you that is pure you? That no matter what happens, no matter where you grow up, will always be there? Is this a result of your soul?



On the 'meant to be' thing between children and parents. I guess you could easily call that soulmates.

There are friends that you come across, completely by chance. At some point in time, in both your lives, you cross paths, and from then on you are inseperable. I suppose it's like it was meant to be.

And there are people that you love so deeply, you feel like, together, you are one. When they suffer, you suffer, and when they feel joy, you feel joy. A connection runs so deep between you and them...

And you can not see it, but it is there. And it is strong.

So if the connection exists, what is it connecting? It certainly isn't anything physical.



Let's look at the facts against souls and soulmates.

Your genes match your parents. So even if you grew up away from them, some parts of you would still mirror them. That's hardly souls, just science.

And if are parents soulmates, then why are there some such terrible mismatches?

You could become friends with people because you have similar interests. You have similar senses of humour. You are just similar.

And i'm not certain, but what we call 'love' can probably be explained by science too. It's just a bunch of chemical reactions inside you, that create emotion for someone, and at the same time exist inside another person, for you.



I have no answers. But i am writing from the point of view that souls exist. So i do have theories. ^_^

Yes, genes will make some parts of you similar to your parents, but not all of you. Like i said before, if 0.00000000000001% of you is not determined by outside influences, and inside influences like genes, then that part of you, is you. And that small part could be the most crucial part of all. And that crucial part might be the missing piece of the puzzle that are your parents' souls together. So in your existence you are brought together.



Now in order to explain mismatches, i must first determine why souls exist. ^_^

If they do exist, i believe it would be to learn. We are born, and we live our life, and then we die. While living, we experience emotions. We experience sadness and happiness. We experience what makes us feel good, and what makes us hurt deep down. We experience every emotion, and feeling. We experience everything imaginable.

When we have learnt enough, we die and our souls are set free, full of knowledge of what it is to truly exist and live. And perhaps our souls all go back to where they came from, and become one again, and pass on their knowledge. And when they reach their destination it is like a drop of food colouring in an ocean.

It is no big deal if a soul did not learn enough, or had to move on before it was their time. For another soul, eager to learn, will be created from the soul pool. Inside that soul will be a little part of every other soul. And it comes to existence to fill in the blanks, to know what it is to live. So if one soul missed out on something, or everything, another soul will take on the job.

If that is true, then we are all connected. In our existence we are all unique puzzle pieces from one huge beautiful picture. Sometimes we find a match and so experience a 'meant to be' feeling. Although perhaps more accurately between friends or partners, it was a 'match by chance'.



Okay that turned into a tangent. Back to why there are mismatches.

While a tiny part of us is our soul, the rest isn't. While our soul learns, the rest of us does as well. And that part of us may be learning what is not best for it. So if a child and a parent do not match, it may be because what the other parts of us know and feel and have learnt, clash with what our souls want. It gets in the way of what could have been a good match and the 'soul relationship' never reaches its full potential.



I'll go on to 'love' now.

Love is the ultimate definition of soulmates. People who are perfect matches, created for each other. Unfortunately we can't always find them. And maybe, i dunno, there isn't a soulmate for everyone. Perhaps part of what our soul needs to learn and feel involves doing it for ourself.

But that doesn't mean soulmates can't be made.

I think if we find someone that makes us happy, someone that fills us with joy, and makes us feel complete, our souls would change. And that change would be a good thing, because it brings our souls closer to their destination, and that could be to become one with itself. Our soul pool could be full one day, with no more need to learn. Souls would have done what they needed to do, and spend the rest of eternity, happy.



Jeez i'm a raving-mad lunatic. lol