Not every day.

I try to be positive, but that doesn't work every day.

It's nights like this - I'm home alone in my bedroom watching TV, Mum's at work for hours, the cats are asleep in other rooms, it's cold, dark, and the crickets are chirping.

It wears me down until i just feel so alone and lonely...

I'm all i've got. It's just me and me.

I don't want to be alone. I hate it.

I know i'm not alone in my loneliness. And that's awful. It's one of the worst things in the world, as far as i'm concerned. So many of us suffer from it. -_-

That's all.

Back to my room now...

love.

Free Self-Promotion For The Win!

I know i said my 2 blogs wouldn't have much to with with each other, but Mirrorboy's Words doesn't have a following yet, so i'm gonna promote it here. :D

I posted my first excerpt of a story ever on the blog. I would love it if you checked it out and commented what you think.

love.

www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/198578

Garden Cats. :P

I slept in this morning. :(

I hate sleeping in. I just cut a few hours out of a day i should be enjoying. Sadness

Anyways, i've got Monday off from school cos it's a public holiday, so long weekend! :D



I just came in from being out in my backyard with my cats. It was raining last night so everything was damp and dewy and had a nice smell. Thank God we're finally getting some rain. Victoria needs it.

Anyways, i of course had my camera with me. Here are some photos i just took. I took over a hundred so it was hard to pick just a 'few'. :P



Balancing cat. :)



It's pretty awesome how spiders can turn leaves into homes.

Eating grass. Mmm.



View from Jemima.



View from Tiger.

Looking wistfully into the distance. :P



Watching birds.

ZOMG. Whose hand is that? :O

Rolling in the dirt.



lol

lol



Detail. :)

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Psychologist Fun Times.

*EDIT: They're psychologists, not psychiatrists. Sorry. :/*

So i went to see 2 psychologists today with my Mum. fun fun

It's nothing bad, in fact it's good, i think.

I need help in how i'm dealing with the crap i have to go through. They're going to help me with my anxiousness and coping with stress, and how i feel about myself etc.

With a bit of help i might feel better about myself and things said/done to me won't affect me so much. I might not get so stressed and anxious and have such trouble facing the day, every day.

It'll take a few weeks to make any progress cos i'm going to go for another appointment in a week by myself, and then they're going to do one with my Mum, and then another with the both of us again, before they give me some strategies.

Anyways, wish me luck. I'm a bit of a mess in life. lol

At least you can't say i've given up. :)



I'll try to get around to posting something on my other blog sometime this weekend. I've just gotta figure out what to post first. I could either start with explaining the story, or why i write, or talking about characters, or i could just start by posting a few random excerpts that i like... I dunno.

Anyways, i'm gonna have an early, relaxing night in my room watching TV.

www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/124154

love.

150,000 views!

Yayyyyyyyy! That's right! 150,000 views.

We've come a long way together haven't we.

I love writing this blog. I still maintain that starting it was one of the best things i've ever done. To think that if i'd never started, i wouldn't have met so many amazing people and learnt so much about the rest of the world, well, i can't imagine where i'd be, and i don't want to know. Blogs are amazing and this one has changed my life for the better in many amazing ways. I also hope i provide you with some sort of amusement or interest. :)

Well, it's onto the surprises! :D



I'm announcing the launch of my new blog! Mirrorboy's Words.

Creative writing is a huge part of my life. But i always felt like the sorts of writing posts that i wanted to make didn't belong on this blog. So, i created a blog just for them! Where i can post about that huge part of my life that i don't mention on here much.

I won't explain any more, cos i posted on there explaining everything. Go check it out and tell me what you think.



BUT! That's not all!

I'm also announcing the launch of a third blog which i will co-own with Jake. We'll be posting the sorts of pics that we find 'appealing to the eye'. You'll see what i mean when you check out Secret Project.

It's a lot different than what you're used to seeing from me, but i think it will be a lot of fun.



As for this blog? Well, let's not fix what ain't broken. There will be no changes to this blog at all... for now. ;)



Check out the new blogs and tell me what you think, comment, and if you want links to either of them drop me an email. (Me thinks Secret Project might be good for the view count) lol

www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/153594 - awesomeness.

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Unnngh...

I feel so exhausted for some reason. Like it's an effort to even stand up. I also seem to be getting an annoying cough.

Maybe it's cos i was up til midnight last night doing homework/watching Dexter, Boston Legal and then 30 Rock. lol

And the night before, i didn't get to sleep til 1am. =_=



Anyways, i just thought i'd drop in, and ya know, say hi and stuff.

I'm also letting you know that it looks like my 150,000 views celebration will happen tomorrow. We've come a long way. So i thought it would be time for a change. Don't worry though - I promise it will be nothing bad. And i'll still be posting most of the same stuff.

You'll see what i mean tomorrow. :P

I hope you'll check out the celebrations.



K. I'm making a lot of typos. I should get to bed and rest. I just wanted to post so i could get some comments, because comments always make me happy. ;)

love.

You should definitely click it to see more detail. ;)

A Good Day!?

That's right, i had a good day, mostly because my gay youth group meeting thingy was on and was cool. :)

There were only a handful of us there today, and the 'meeting' wasn't really 'on' because the organiser had to take care of a shop downstairs, so we hung around in there with her just chatting. It was a lot more relaxed than last time, and i actually talked to someone this time too! *gasp*

So that was cool. :)

The group is working on making some stickers for the next few weeks that we're going to try to get businesses around town to put up on their windows to show that they're 'gay-friendly'. As well as a few other things.

I really like this group. I can't wait til i really get into it. I can be myself here more than anywhere else cos people around me are actually gay! How amazing! lol



I've got some things planned for my 150,000 views milestone - BIG things. The way i blog will be a lot different from then on. You'll see some different sides to me in different ways.

I'm really excited about it. I think it's gonna be a fun change. I can't wait.



Here's today's music link. www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/142057

love.