Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Poor Landy.

Well first of all, no, i didn't go to school today. I woke up feeling like crap and with a headache, so Mum said i shouldn't go.

Second, i guess i'm feeling a bit worried/upset/tense/sad/scared etc. And it's because nothing gets to me more than hearing people i love, talking about how things are getting too much to bear for them. Specifically now, i'm talking about Landyn. He means the world to me and i love him so much. And i feel so hopeless that i can't be there for him cos he's on the other side of the world.

It just rips at my heart. I feel such a strong connection to him and think about him so much, even though we've spent weeks at a time without any contact. Maybe it's just like that for everyone who has talked to him though. Cos he's such an incredible person.

But i can't lose him. It scares the shit out of me to think that someone that close to me could disappear one day and never come back. And he has talked about trying to end it before. So i worry when he disappears.

I know that if he were ever to hurt himself, i would never forgive myself.

I just want you to be okay, Landyn. You really do mean the world to me. And to lots of others as well, no doubt.

I would give anything to be there with you. I miss you and love you so much.

Sorry for the random emotional post. This situation is just really getting to me.


cvn70 said...

hope you feel better mboy get some good rest and well you said how a lot us feel about landyn so lets keep in him our thoughts

take care and be safe


AJCon89 said...


<3 the landyn

i have been worried about him too

James said...

No, it's a good post. I think it reflects the feelings we all have for Landyn. You've articulated what I feel for him even better than I could.

Landyn said...


I love you, and you're one of he big reasons that I have been fighting through things a day at a time.

Although things are hard, I have the presence of mind to not do anything stupid, so don't worry.

I still have a little bit of hope left and I'm not letting go of it.

I love you so much man, always know that. I think about you just as much, if not more, than you say you think about me.

You are such a caring person, someone that I look up to as an example of trying to stay positive in shitty situations.

Love you so much,

mirrorboy said...


I love youuuuu


naturgesetz said...

You're so good-hearted, MBoy.

Glad to see you respond that way, Landyn.

Planetx_123 said...

Mboy is good people.

I too feel terrible. I just hate that there is so much hurt surrounding the relationship with his parents-- these are the people that are supposed to love us 'unconditionally'. It makes me even more angry that its over something so arbitrary and ridiculous...


The Vice Buddha said...

Awwwwww.... :)

This is so cute!

Such purity in a relationship is so rare!

You now reminded me of my best fwend who's away... has beena way for like ages now :(
but am all excited to see him next month when he comes for a visit :D

yay yay yay!!

Lindsay said...

Sick! :(
Hope you recover soon MB.

I feel for your distress over Landyn’s situation, being so far away and feeling helpless to do more.
I went through something similar in the past, I wish I could have done more then. :(

I am reminded again of your immense love and compassion for those who are suffering.

You are passionate and honest in how you feel about Landyn.
He couldn’t ask for a better friend and ally.

Don’t apologize for being emotional, we wouldn’t have you any other way.


Anonymous said...

you're annoying

mirrorboy said...

Refer to the end of this post

You're a prick. Fuck you. Fuck that shit. I'm sick of biting my tongue for anonymous fuckers like you. Fuck off. I'm sick of it. People like YOU are ANNOYING. Go to Hell and/or drop dead.


Yelugab said...

Yelugab reckons that u r doing ok. So whats all the fuss about? Guys of your age worry too much! Spend more time with your hands inside your best friends boxer's - it's much more fun!