Thursday, December 24, 2009

Buying Presents on Christmas Eve. :D

Not very fun at all. O_O

Soooo what's up with me? Well i've been trying to keep in contact with Bboy any way i can. We talk, and text, and play WoW together when we can. It was a lot harder going back to being alone once he left than i thought it would be. But regular contact with him makes it a bit easier.

I've been doing a lot of homework from my psych. Apparently most of the issues i have revolve around my low self-esteem, so that's what i'm working on.

I'm also trying to feel more. After i've been hurt so much in the past, i've become a very protective person. I shield myself to stop myself from being hurt again. In the process, i've shut out the good and the bad, so my emotions have become quite dulled. But again, i'm working on that too. I have to do this thing where i choose an event, and then list all the feelings i felt, and the thoughts associated with each feeling. It was quite fun axly. :)

I could go into SO much detail about my psych stuff but you'd all get bored. :P

In other news, i obviously haven't been around blogworld for a while now: not reading many other blogs, not commenting, not going on msn much etc. I think it's quite apparent to all of us that i'm not going to be around the blogosphere for much longer. I just wanted to make sure everyone knew so that it isn't a surprise when i leave for good one day. :)

Rest assured that doesn't mean you won't hear from me again. I'll still use msn and reply to emails and such. In fact without my blog i'll probly be able to do that more often. When i leave i'll be sure to leave my contact details for anyone who wishes to get in touch.

Anyways i've gotta go wrap my Mum's presents before she gets home.

Merry Christmas everyone. <3

Btw i've got an important post planned for the end of they year. :O


John said...

MB grows up.

Merry Christmas !


Planetx_123 said...

well that sounds awesome about your psych homework... i can relate to some of what you're saying... i should try that exercise.

Well i know you havent been around a lot -- but do you actually have to make a formal exit? whats wrong with posts just every once in a while? This blog is still important to a lot of people even though its main use in your life may have passed.

I want to konw how your story develops and ends up!? Your story is a good one :-)

Much Love,

Aek said...

It's good that you're finally lowering your shields and walls. :-)

I certainly hope your dwindling presence on your blog isn't the signs of your blog's aging, but rather a dry spell that you'll eventually pass. Whichever it is, I hope things continue to go well for you in life.

Kevin Wilson said...

Merry Christmas kid - hope you and Bitboy can catch up with each other tomorrow somehow.

J said...

After the last three weeks I would think your image problem is not as big as it used to be. The mirror doesn't tell us whether we are fair or foul. It tells us we are.
My best for the season, and the new year.

WkBoy714 said...

Hm I don't want it to be the leaving post :(


WkBoy714 said...

Merry Christmas by the way :D
Have a nice..sunny..Christmas

goleftatthefork said...

MB ... wishing you a very Merry Christmas! According the Santa tracker website that my kids are monitoring every 10 seconds, he should be in your neck of the woods about now ... so I hope he delivers you something wonderful that you deserve so much!

Jason Shaw said...

Sending you lots of love for a merry christmas. and may 2010 be a much better year full of joy and pleasure.


Ray's Blog said...


I agree with John -- you're growing up. It's good to see that things are working out for you and that everything is coming together.

It is hard to let the walls down and share you feelings with others. A special friend of mine went through somewhat the same you did when he was younger, and it was hard for him to share his feelings with others, but eventually he was able to work through it. I'm glad you have Bitboy to work through this together.

We're going to miss this wonderful blog of yours, but we all understand.

Merry Christmas! Hope tomorrow will be great.

Love and Hugs,

Jason Carwin said...

Hi, mboy. I'm sad to hear that you're probably going to lay the blog to rest soon. I have grown to enjoy your blog and all of its insights and opinions. I have been reading for about 6 months now, and for some reason I have never contacted you on msn. Hopefully we can chat at some point.

Landyn said...

im with steve

Mirrorboy said...

For those that don't want me to go, i'll post my reasons soon. :)

Thnx for the love <3

Tim said...

Merry Christmas. Wishing you lots of happiness.

Anonymous said...

You are growing up. Do a variety of things. Talk to someone you trust. Write iff I can help. I am old and so hoping you enjoy your youth and take things easier.utholib

Seth said...

Well. First, I wanted to wish you a wonderful happy holiday and Merry Christmas.

But I'm sad to hear of changes in the winds with you and your blog. Although, in a way, they are changes for the better and I'm proud of you.

I'm also sad to notice that I haven't seen you on MSN in months, which makes me think you must have removed me from your list. It's ok, no biggie. Im not the worlds best chat-er.

Have a wonderful holiday I hope you've gotten all the presents you wished for!


John said...

Hey ! I object ! None of us WANT
to see you go, K ?

When I said MB grows up I just meant that well I guessed that
life was moving you along as it does for all of us, you know ?

This the blog world has been a wonderful tool for you but every thing changes, everything !

Since you started this look how much has changed for you, your
whole life really !

You`ve grown so so much ! You had
your issues and delt with them,
you`ve found out you can deal with the world, you`ve found out that
OMG there IS someone out there
that honest to God likes you and loves you for who you are !

And the best part is you`ve shared this with all of us !

Thank you for that !

For me you don`t need to explain anything. John

Jeremy said...


I dont want you to leave :/

*hugs and refuses to let go*

oldmidhurstian said...

First off a late Christmas wish, hope you had a good one.

I'm glad you're starting to see some of the underlying causes of your unhappiness. Poor self image is incredibly destructive, I know that one only too well. It's also very tempting to shut everyone out rather than risk letting one bad person in. Hope you can find a way through all this and find the happiness you deserve.

Love to you and BitBoy, hope it all works out

All the best for 2010
Mac (Old Midhurstian)

Kris said...

MB, As one who knows let me just say that your writing skills are in the top one percent. Whatever you do keep writing, and I look forward to reading your first book.

John Doe said...

It's sad to hear that you are going to be gone soon. Thanks for sharing your story with me and the rest of us.

Take care,