New email and heatwave.

So i'm going to try out using a new email address for people to contact me on, because my previous one also doubled as my personal one, which i don't think was a good idea.

icekeebyblu@hotmail.com is my new email address. It can also be found in the sidebar. For all things mirrorboy/blog-related please use that one. :)

I won't be using it for MSN though so don't randomly add me. :P

I'll still be using my other one a lot so if that's how you already contact me, don't worry about changing. And i'll be using my other one for MSN. I just won't be putting it on my blog anymore.

If you're set on having my MSN, send an email to my new address and i'll let you know. :)

Okay. That should put my heart at rest just a little more.



Just so you know, it's still freakin hot! To put it into perspective, this is the worst heatwave my state has experienced in over a century! T_T

'With fire-fighters, rail operators and power companies on red alert'. We've got news headlines like 'Heatwave Hell'. Cities are close to breaking their all-time temperature records. Some are getting up around 45 degrees C, and that's 113 degrees F!

And all you others are complaining about the snow and cold?! Gimme a break! Agh we're melting like snowmen! If i had snow i would dive into it and rub it all over my naked body.

For realsies.

Uuuuunnnnnnnngghh!!

Today feels even HOTTER than yesterday! O_O

It's hot and sticky and sweaty and it won't go away. :'(

I fuckin hope it has cooled down a bit before school is on again, cos i don't want to be outside on days like this!

This is just exhausting. I don't feel like doing anything cos it would just be too uncomfortable.

Ugh.

*Melts*

Today's gonna be a 40 degrees C day, or 104 degrees F.

T_T

I hate hot days. I much prefer the cold ones.

Damn you Australia and your hot and dry climate!





I gotta go clean up my room before my friend gets here.

See y'all tomorrow, if i haven't died from the heat by then. :)

Busy busy.

Sorry i haven't been updating as much recently, but with only a week left until school starts again, my blog can't be my top priority. I have other things i need to deal with, like my uniform and shoes, and school books, and a little bit of homework i have left, as well as things like my contacts.

I'm also trying to work on my story, and i can't make any progress if i'm on the internet worrying about blogs and such.

My friend is also coming over for a night either Tuesday or Wednesday, so i won't be around then as well.

Love y'all. I'll be posting regularly again soon.



Oh, and i forgot. Happy Australia Day.

Perfectionism.

So i'm gonna buckle down and try to make some decent progress in my story today.

I guess since my break from it, i forgot MY KEY to writing.

I'm a goddamn perfectionist and if i can't get something absolutely perfect the first time, then i don't end up doing it. That's my problem. I focus too much on saying things the right way, rather than just getting them down on the screen!

So that's what i'm gonna try - just telling a story, rather than telling it in the best way.

I'm gonna have to come back when i'm finished with it (maybe in a year or so) and proofread the whole thing and fix up those mistakes anyway. I'll worry about that when i come to it. :P

So today if i can just keep writing, and start making some progress, then hopefully it'll all start to come back to me and i'll be writing like the good old days. ;)

Next one's unedited.

Hell on Earth.

K so i know i haven't been posting that much... and what i have posted recently hasn't been that exciting. :P

Well frankly, there's not much to report because i'm still on my school break and i'm just trying to relax. School does, however, start again on Feb the 2nd. *CRIES

And the break i just had was Australia's ONLY decent break ALL YEAR. I'm basically gonna be back at school for the whole year until mid-December. And we only get another 6 weeks worth off from school until then. :'/

That's right. No sort of Summer Break for us. Aussies will be at school while you other bastards are out relaxing. -_-

So i hope you enjoyed my company on MSN and such. I can only be on during my daytime on weekends from February. That sucks cos i have a lot of good American friends and they'll probably be in bed by the time i'm home. :/



Of course, i am dreading going back to school. It really is a hell on Earth. Being the ONLY OUT GAY SUDENT in the fuckin place is HARD. I mean there's a reason why i'm the only 'out' one! Cos we're a small city too, the others are small-minded and basically immature. That's why i KNOW i don't belong here and as soon as i can, i'm moving to Melbourne. I can't wait for that, but it's probably another 3 years away. :(

I am going to try to go back a different person, more confident and minus the glasses, but i know just how depressed i was last year. School was beating me down. I also have a good idea that school is to blame for my pretty severe self-confidence and self-esteem issues.

I guess i'm gonna have an idea of how everything is gonna go for the year by the first week. I'm gonna know who's in my classes, where our areas are, if i've got teachers i can trust, if the others have grown up (or not), and if i'm a different person or i've reverted to my old self.

You can wish me luck and tell me to be strong, but it's not that easy. It's goddamn hard living here where people literally hate me for being gay.



When i am back, i will either be posting more cos there will be more to post about, or i'll be posting even less cos i will be too overwhelmed with school to feel like it.

<3

That's it for now i guess. I'm trying to milk what's left of my school break cos it's slipping away very quickly.

Obamarama. :P

I watched some of the early morning coverage here of Barack Obama's inauguration.

What an uplifting, inspiring and amazing man he is. Even with the world basically going steadily downhill, he had the courage to stand up and take charge.

His speech was amazing. I hung off every word. Compare that to the former president who could barely string a coherent sentence together, and things start to look up for us. ^_^

Perhaps we needed someone like him. Someone who grew up as part of a minority, who knows what it's like and has a bigger view of the world, and someone who wasn't 'born with a silver spoon in their mouth'. It's certainly a step forward.

And i can say to Americans, that i am proud of you for making the right choice. :)

With Obama at the helm, you might regain some of your respect. lol

His ambitious dreams of unity are what we need.

I believe we're in the safest hands, and i think the world needs him. If he can't do it, then no one can.



A small sample of awesomeness:

"So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are and how far we have travelled. In the year of America's birth, in the coldest of months, a small band of patriots huddled by dying campfires on the shores of an icy river. The capital was abandoned. The enemy was advancing. The snow was stained with blood. At a moment when the outcome of our revolution was most in doubt, the father of our nation ordered these words be read to the people: 'Let it be told to the future world... that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive... that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet it.'

America. In the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words. With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations."

Awful Dream.

Yeah... What an awful dream.

My Grandma dies and my Mum goes blind. Then my Mum starts to get worse and i can tell she's going to die too.

I live in a (perpetually dark and gloomy) castle. It's my family's job to protect a small, obviously important, crystal.

A band of people inside the castle (perhaps our former workers) start trying to get their hands on the crystal, killing those in their way. People loyal to us are tricked and murdered. We fight back but we can't stop them.

A person close to us is the leader of our enemies, and takes the crystal.

My Mum vows that when she is dead, she will haunt him forever.

Then i come out into the kitchen and cry. My Mum can't comfort me because she has lost most of her hearing by now and doesn't hear me sobbing.

The End.



I think dreams represent something that is happening in our real lives. I wonder what that one means...

MBoy's Dilemma.

If you've only recently started reading my blog, or you've forgotten what i said, you should know that a major part and passion of my life is writing, and i want to be an author.

For a very long time now, i've been writing my story called 'Universes', and i made a post about it some time ago if you're interested. It's a little over 178,000 words now, so try to wrap your head around how much i've worked on it. :)

The problem is, since my break from school started (before Christmas) i haven't actually worked on it at all. I've taken a break from it for all that time.

Now, i'm trying to get back to it, and that's where the problem starts. I'm in a completely different headspace than i was a month ago. I've forgotten my little sparks of ideas. I've forgotten the city names and the locations. I've forgotten my characters' little quirks.

I can't get back in my writing 'zone'. And to top it off, my writing style is forever changing.

Before i took my break, i was already at a block - wading about in a thick pool of STUCK, and since then, i've just relaxed and sunk deeper in, and now it's going to be even harder to get out.

That's my current dilemma, and it's going to require a hell of a lot of commitment and time to work through it. :/

===>mirrorboy<===

Contacts. :D

So, after a successful visit to the optometrist, and half-an-hour of frustration in the bathroom and a pair of very sore and tired eyes, guess who's wearing contacts? ^_^

It still feels a bit uncomfortable, kind of like having an eyelash in your eye. And they've been watering-up a bit, but they've only been in for about 15 minutes.

I can see fine. In fact, my eyes had changed so i can actually see better than when i was wearing glasses.

How i feel right now is beyond words. This meant so much to me. And i got it.

Ugh.

It was soooooooo hot today.

I hate hot days. On cold days, you can easily warm up, but on hot days, you can't cool down easily without some sort of... electronic air conditioning machine (which i don't have). lol

So i was melting... melting for most of the day. :/

I HATE hot days. Aaaaahh!



I also woke up at 5 AM today! :O

I was feeling really sick and had a bad pain, but i'm okay now. It just woke me up. Then i started watching TV and a repeat of one of my favourite shows was on early in the morning. ^_^

So i've been pretty dreary today. But i guess that's good cos it should reset my body clock after a few late nights. I need to be up and ready for my 9 AM optometrist appointment tomorrow so i can shower and practice with my eye-jabbing etc.

And i love being an early-riser. :)



Now something weird is happening. Almost every day i experience some sort of deja vu. Does anyone else ever feel like that?

I can be doing something totally random, and all of a sudden i'll just freeze and be like, 'What the hell? This is so familiar...' It's like i've already done it before.

It's creeping me out. o_O

Sometimes i feel like i've dreamt about it before it happens...

I dunno. I'm probably weirding everyone out right now. *shuts up



K thanks for all the kind words regarding my milestone. It means a lot. *hugs

I'm also thinking of ditching ===>mirrorboy<=== for something less... fancy. lol

The only reason i ever went with that one was because Landyn was the only person to respond to my post about possible signatures and suggested that one.

Any ideas for a new one?

Oh and speaking of Landyn, he's still alive and just posted after a month! OMG! haha

If you haven't read his blog before, go have a look and get to know the most awesome person in the world. :)



K well. That was a lot of random crap for one post aye.

Byebye.

100,000 views. ^_^

Yayyyy. We've come a long way from my awkward blog beginnings. lol

Speaking of awkward, i wanna thank a few people for helping me be who i am.

Without you, not only would i not be here blogging, but i'd be a miserable, lonely and self-loathing boy like i used to be last year.



Lach. You were my first ever gay friend. That was a huge thing for me. Thank you so much for your kindness.

Jake. You were my first link, my first commenter, and my first boyfriend of any sort, even if it is only online. I loves you so much.

Landyn. Knowing that people as amazing as you exist in the world gives me hope for a better future. I miss you so much.

AJ and Matt, for just being my friends. I'm so happy i know you both. You inspire everyone else, even though you may not know it.

My cats, for letting me post pictures of them when i having nothing interesting to say, and especially Tig, for being the face of mboy.

All my linkers. Thanks for letting me leech off your popularity. :P

All my online friends. You mean the world to me. I mean that. Just letting me be a part of your life makes me happy.

And all my readers. It doesn't matter if you don't email me or comment or talk to me every day, just knowing that you're there makes me keep writing this.

And a select few people i know in real life who accept me for who i am. I'm glad i have that, and that not everyone hates me.



What this blog has done for me:

It's given me a positive attitude. I used to be a pessimist. I saw the bad side of everything, including myself. Since i started writing this blog, that has changed.

It's given me inner strength. I can step outside my door and know who i am on the inside, and not be willing to let anyone change that.

It's widened my view of the world. There are great people and places out there, and so many great things to do. I realised that the rest of the world is not like my little city, and thank God for that!

It's gifted to me people who can support me when i need help.

I've met so many amazing people who i love.

And it's all been a hell of a lot of fun. :)



I realised we have to be thankful for what we have. For fuck sake, we need to stop worrying about what we don't have. We're always going to be missing something. Life's not perfect for anyone! Just be grateful! Everyone has to have something in their life they're lucky to have, whether it's a single close friend, or an accepting family, or enough money to live by, or health, or a hot ass, or a great skill, or even a couple of loving pets.

I'm thankful i have this blog. It was the best thing that has ever happened to me.



Thank you everyone.

Woot Tennis Woot.

Yayyyyy. The Australian Open tennis is almost on! Tennis on TV every day for almost 2 weeks. ^_^

Tennis is one of the few sports i actually like watching. Everything else (apart from the Winter Olympics) bores me to pieces.

Of course, i'm too uncoordinated and clumsy to play it myself. lol

Even though a lot of the matches can go for hours, it really gets my heart pumping, although maybe that's cos i usually watch my favourite players, and i end up feeling connected to them.

And they are Marcos Baghdatis, Novak Djokovic and Rafael Nadal (epic sigh). I love Rafael Nadal for so many reasons. ;D

And i actually don't like any of the Australian players. lol

They really annoy me. I like seeing them fail. :)



Random stuff:

- I've been practicing my eye-jabbing. For everyone who keeps asking, I DON'T HAVE my contacts yet!! I'm not gonna get them until i can actually put them in and take them out at the optometrist's.

- I deleted about 9 contacts (not the sort you put in your eyes) from msn today. Your loss for being creepy bastards. lol :)

- What's funny is that as i browse the web, i see more and more random people linking to me. I guess i'm semi-famous. Ain't that cool. :D

I'm still just an ordinary kid though. lol

Remember that. :)



K. I'm having an early night.

G'night.

Almost there.

We're a few days away from 100,000 views.

That is so hard for me to comprehend - to see it as more than just a number. But i can see that i should do something special. Cos even as just a number, it's a big one. ;D

You're my readers. What do you think i should do?

100,000 random facts about me? lol. Nooooo.

Leave some comments...

And no. I'm not posting nude pics. :P

Worn-out.

Sorry i wasn't around much last night, but i felt like crap.

I spent today at my friend's house. I got back half-an-hour ago.

I think i'll get some dinner, and then spend the rest of the night relaxing, away from blog stuff. As much as i love it, it's draining my energy slowly. I also need to go practice jabbing myself in the eyes.



I'm taking down the poll tonight too.

72 of you said i should give my e-relationship with Jake a go, while 16 of you were against it.

Well, i'm damn right gonna, cos i love him more every day.



See you tomorrow.

===>mirrorboy<===

FAIL.

:'(

I just got back from the optometrist. Although i was a little better at putting things near my eyes, i'm still really really bad at getting contacts in. My f**king reflexes are too strong.

Even when the optometrist tried to put them in for me, she still found it a struggle.

I've got another appointment in a week.

For now i'm just really disappointed. I want this so bad.



My eyes are sore. Although i just put some drops in them, i won't be on for long tonight.

I should just rip my eyelids off.

===>mirrorboy<===

Clarifying and contacts.

K. I said not to call me anything other than mirrorboy, in the blogging world. That means that you can call me whatever you want in emails, or on msn or anything else.

On blogs though, my name is mirrorboy.

I hope that clears things up a bit. I don't get upset or anything, but i would just prefer it that way. :)



So, I just got back from the optometrist. I tried putting the contacts in my eyes, but i can't keep my eyes open to get them in. The moment anything touches my eye, my eyelids shut. So i couldn't get them in.

I need to practice getting over my blink reflex, and i've got another appointment at 4:35pm tomorrow to try again. :/



I don't think i've ever mentioned just how terrible my reflexes are. If anything comes towards me, i pretty much jolt. I also hate having anything near my eyes, which was okay while i was wearing glasses, because they were protected a little.

My friends love messing with my reflexes of course, like pretending to whack my hand with a pencil. My arm, of course, recoils like elastic.

:/

I might post again tonight. We'll see.

===>mirrorboy<===

Jake is probably still sleeping. lol

* * *

1 last note. This is awesome. XD

Links and other crap.

All the random stuff i wanna get out.

And yes, i feel better after an early night. :)



I've added a few new blogs to my links recently, and they're still in their early stages, so you can jump on board before they take off for stardom. ^_^

Of course, i have no idea if they'll turn out decent... or end up taking the same path as Archer's Blog. Too bad... cos i was really liking his blog too...



Rock You. By a gay 17yo from New Zealand...

The Awakening. By Aahsazyl. He's pretty insane. lol

Writing Fiction. A gay 19yo... who writes long posts. hahaha

Doubtful Animal. A friendly 16yo from the UK.

Gentleman's Romance. ANOTHER blogger from California. :P

And Joie to the Max, which has been around for a while. Really cool. :)



Moving on. I've got a bunch of people on my msn list who added me and haven't even spoken to me yet. It's kind of creepy; like i'm being stalked in a tiny way... -_-

I am NOT going to initiate first conversation with someone who added me. Adding me is fine, but i thought it was only common courtesy for them to say hello!

At the end of the week (Saturday), i will be deleting and probably blocking all those people who haven't spoken yet. If i'm not online, at least send me an offline message or something. I'm sure you added me for some reason, so speak up or you won't get another chance!



For followers of Landyn's blog who don't talk to him personally, i'm letting you know that he's okay, but he doesn't get much internet time anymore cos he's back living with his family, so he won't be posting much for a while.



Also, this is a reminder for everyone to call me mirrorboy, and not by my real nickname. I'm not that comfortable with everyone calling me anything else other than mirrorboy in the blogging world. Please. And don't be a prick and do it on purpose after this post.



And my e-relationship is going good. I'm more in love with Jake every day. (heart)



And if anyone has sent me any important emails that need replying and i haven't replied, send me a reminder, lol. I can't be stuffed going back and looking through them. :/



K. I've probably fogotten something important, lol. If i remember it, i'll just come back and edit it in later. :)

My contacts appointment is tomorrow in the morning. Wish me luck...

*crosses fingers

===>mirrorboy<===

Uuuuugh.

My head feels really dizzy and headachey...



It's probably from those recent late nights spent talking to Jake. He's stays up til 3 or 4, and yet i'm an early riser. I still end up going to bed past midnight.

Ugh... I need a good sleep.



Anyways, that pic is my new profile pic. I decided to change it for the new year. I think it's pretty cool.



And whether you like my new relationship or not, i'm glad most of you support me. <3

Thanks.

K... Going to bed now.

My E-Relationship.

It's funny how many of you can NOT be happy for me. Hmm...

I'd like to thank those who are supporting MY decision to have an e-relationship with a boy i really like.



I had to explain to Peter why i was with Jake, so i'm going to repost some stuff from my comment on his blog.

I've known Jake for months, ever since i started my blog. He's a great guy with a wicked sense of humour, and he was also the first person to ever talk to me. Without his kindness my blog wouldn't have picked up.

We have so much in common.

And he makes me laugh and smile. And he's smart. And we're both only children. And we're both weird. And geez, we actually live on the same continent. So i decided to give this a shot, to see what happens. I like him a lot. I don't 'love' him (yet), but i'm willing to give that a chance to develop, and it would be great if it did.



Whatever. I just thought of a new poll.

No surprise what it is. Go have a look and vote. :)

It's not gonna change what i do, but i'm just curious what you all think.



I hope most of you can find a way to be happy for me and not wish that my new relationship fails, like some people i've talked to. :/

<3

===>mirrorboy<===

Boyfriend... kind of... :P

K first of all, it's time to get rid of these old polls...

Poll A - Was the worst experience of your life related to, or a result of, your sexuality?

106 votes.

Yes - 39%
No - 60%

I thought they'd be the other way around, but it's good they're not. :)



Poll B - What was the best experience of your life related to?

109 votes.

The most popular was Travel with 17%

Ahh yes. That makes sense. I can't wait to travel. It's definitely near the top of my to-do list.

Not surprisingly, Love was also near the top - 16%
Friends (probably not the TV show) - 14%
Young innocence (which was my answer, as funny as it sounds for a 15yo lol) - 10%
Sex - 10%

I'm not sure how sex can be up there but whatever... lol

Then School, Family, and a bunch of others. :P

I'll put up some new polls in the morning. I'm too tired to think of any now. :/



Anyways, i'm sure you all know Jake Anon from his blog, My Life On A Wall.

That was, until now, my brother blog. It's now my boyfriend blog. ^_^

And Jakey's now my e-boyfriend. That's right. I pounced on him before the pedos did. They all seem to love him, lol. Well i got there first. :P

This means that... well... neither of us really know. But it's just nice aye.

We'll see where we go. It could dwindle. It could turn into something great. I can't be any worse off. :)

And he's a really great guy.

<3

I'll explain it better when it's not nearly 1am. =_=

Goodnight all.

===>mirrorboy<===